4.11.2008

3 Great words

I will never forget these three words. When I was a child, my dad told me that these three words were his favorite words of all time.

He had great taste.... I do feel like these are words that should be used as much as possible, when appropriate, of course!

1. Nincompoop.
noun
a stupid foolish person

She was a nincompoop to believe the Giants would win the game.

2. Titillation.
c.1425, "pleasing excitement," from L. titillationem (nom. titillatio) "a tickling," noun of action from titillare "to tickle," imitative of giggling.

My husband seems to gain much titillation at my expense.

3. Discombobulated.
adjective
having self-possession upset; thrown into confusion; "the hecklers pelted the discombobulated speaker with anything that came to hand"; "looked at each other dumbly, quite disconcerted"- G.B.Shaw

The Olympic Torch Bearers were discombobulated by Gavin Newsom's change of plans.

And while I'm on the topic....




A couple of days ago, I blogged about friendship. As you all know, it's a topic that has been on my mind lately, in light of recent events.

One of my favorite girls, Ayelet, sent me the link to a website for Women on the Web (Apparently they wanted to use the domain: dot.WOW.dot.com but it was already taken as an adult website! So... wowowow.com it is!

It's great site for thought provoking women, like A & I, to learn about the opinions and sentiments of like minded women as well as share our own thoughts. The site features a panel of strong and well-respected women who initiate topics of conversation, debatable issues, and questions to ponder. Registered members of the site can pipe in and contribute their 2 cents, providing content on the web. I love it!

Today, I found the following conversation topic.

http://www.wowowow.com/conversation/friendship-family-gossip-Texas

The title called out at me. And I feel it is so true. I once saw a gimmicky t-shirt that read, "Friends are God's reward for punishing us with Family" -- that is a bit much in my opinion, but I did get a good laugh! ; )


4.10.2008

Mr. B

I'm having a very reflective week as many of you know.

Seriously, the I LOVE YOU, MAN! emails I sent to almost all of my friends and family members were NOT a result of some afternoon drinking binge, rather a knee jerk reaction to an emotional day that truly caught me off guard. I thought, " it's a funeral for someone I don't even know... I'll show up in support for my friend and get on with my day - never mind the chapel was so mobbed I didn't even get a chance to give her my condolences."

Whoa... hold on, not so fast. I stepped into the chapel and like a ton of bricks, emotions hit me I hadn't felt in years. I listened to my friend's speech.... truly a brave endeavor given it had been her decision to ask for a divorce just a year ago and most of the funeral attendees were his family members, who were certainly not shy about expressing their disapproval regarding the divorce. I admire her honest and touching memorial of a man who was clearly the love of her life. People evolve... it's life and it makes me sad that his family could not find a way in their hearts to accept the decisions that were made in the past.

But, I digress.

Beethoven (AKA Mr. B) is the topic for today. Another friend of mine lost her cat to cancer (what a week!) and I realized that my days with Beethoven are numbered. So, I felt like I should write a little something on behalf of my partially senile cat, who I love like a family member.

This cat has been with me through thick and thin... literally. I got the little man when I was in college, just 20 years old, I felt like such a mature adult. I shared an apartment with my boyfriend at the time. He wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed, thus he named Beethoven, after Beethoven the dog, yeah, that's right, the big St. Bernard in that popular movie from the early 90's. I'm still scratching my head.

Beethoven has been through it all. A shy kitten, he was traumatized early on. Boyfriend and I went on a mini-vacation and left my friend Seema and her group of boypals to babysit. Years later I learned that in a drunken stupor, they had duct taped baby B to a swivel chair, twirled him 'round and 'round and watched as he dizzily tried to run away. How messed up is that? As I write this, I find myself getting mad. But as Seema is a childhood friend, we forgive and forget.

No wonder poor Beethoven always ran and hid whenever someone came over to visit.

Beethoven lived with me in Davis, my tiny studio in Sacramento, my even tinier closet size "studio" in San Francisco.... then life got good: after Pete and I moved in together, he lived in a palatial 2 bedroom apartment in Tiburon, and now heaven: our house in Alamo with the big backyard. Sometimes I find him rolling around in the grass like the king that he is.

Life changed suddenly for Beethoven about 2 1/2 years ago. Lucy the precocious, hyperactive, fast-moving, sharp-as-a-tack Boston Terrior arrived. Oh, it was an adjustment. Luckily Beethoven still has his claws intact and little Lucy learned at an early age NOT to mess with Mr. B.

At 17 years old, and with little Lucy demanding as much attention as she does - oh, and she's too cute not to warrant it - Beethoven often times is forgotten, an afterthought. Except when Beethoven is hungry. Then EVERYBODY knows it. He's relentless, "Meow, Meow, Meow (rubs up to leg), Meow, Meow (rubs up to leg)". He knows what needs to be done to get what he wants. There is no way some punk dog is going to get in the way of mealtime, oh no, siree!

I've started taking more pictures of Beethoven. I will try to post some on my blog. I can't bear to think about the day when Beethoven is no longer in our lives but I do know this cat has lived a great life, I'm sure he has used most of his 9....

Friendship

I have some amazing friends. I have been thinking alot about friendships after realizing that someone I considered to be a friend does not reciprocate that sentiment. I realize that I need to be more selective over who I spend my valuable time with. Friendships should be mutually supportive, respectful, non-judgmental in nature. Most of my friendships are based on such simple principles.

One of my true and dear friends, Victoria, sent me the following:

We don't get to have friends who stay with us for a long time often, and as years go by I value my friendship with girls like you more, because we will always be friends and that's not very common these days. People tend to be flaky and they come and go. and sometimes they grow apart. So it's really important to keep those who are close to us, who have seen us through good and bad close by. And we have to take friends for what they are, with traits that we like and with traits we disagree on. Good friends are like family members, you love them but also get annoyed by things you don't like about them...., Then there are other types of friends who kind of fade away with time, they just don't seem to care about you or be interested in your life, those we call them good ridden. You know who i'm talking about! :)

Victoria and I have had many discussions about "friends" who have faded away as she describes.
We are constantly evolving individuals and sometimes friends come to us to serve a specific purpose and once that purpose has been met, both parties move on. Such is life.

But the true friends who remain through good & bad, richer & poorer, are those to hold on to.

4.09.2008

Like a Drug

Last Sunday, Lucy and I went to the Lafayette Reservoir to hike the rim. It's a 2 hour hike and I had lunch plans with my mom so I had to rush.

We ended up running 3/4 of the hike (usually it takes 2 hours to hike, but running knocked our time down to 1 hour 20 minutes).

What a rush!

I haven't run in at least a year due to recurring running related injuries. I had made the decision to put away my running shoes and go into retirement.

But last Sunday, running at the top of the ridge viewing the amazing sights and feeling my breathing settle into the runner's zone.... I forgot how much I truly love to run.

All of my problems dissolve, life seems a little bit clearer, I feel truly healthy, and nothing else matters but one foot in front of another.... and whatever song is playing on the iPod.

I came home and told Pete. He laughed and asked me if there are any marathons in my future?

Let's take this one day at a time shall we? We had a good laugh as we agreed that my mom would probably disown me if I signed up for a marathon about now.

Good times.

New Day



It's a new day and I am in a much happier frame of mind today.

Oh, check it out: the Giants won last night's game vs. the Padres.... Benjie Molina hit a game ending Home Run in the 11th inning! Whoa, baby. Apparently Benjie hit two home runs yesterday - and I was laughing that he is their "clean up" hitter - shame on me! : )

I've been thinking a lot over the past few days about friendship and the people in my life who truly keep me sane and jazzed about life. I have some truly amazing, inspirational, and wonderful friends. I need to cherish the friendships based on mutual respect, honesty and acceptance. I also need to recognize the non-reciprocated "friendships" and value myself and my time more wisely.

Life is too short not to spend it with the people you love, who love you back.

4.08.2008

Life is precious.

I went to a funeral today... it was the second funeral I have ever been to in my life, both were memorials for lives which ended way too soon.

This event truly affected me. I don't know if it is unresolved emotions from my father's death. I just KNOW what is in store for these girls (age 13 & 17) , and it breaks my heart. Every milestone they achieve will be diminished to some extent because their dad wasn't there to experience it with them: First day at college, graduation, their first job, engagement to that perfect guy, marriage....

SO... my words of advice to Alyssa and Erica: live life to the fullest.... for your dad and cherish the memories you have.

4.07.2008

Opening Day




I got to the city early this morning -- wanted to avoid traffic and ensure I could find a reliable spot to log in so I could get some work done before taking off for an annual tradition -- Opening Day at PacBell - oops, AT&T - Park.

Pete has been to Opening Day every year since the ball park opened. I have been to every Opening Day, except the very first. I just love the excitement and sense of optimism in the air. Fans dressed out in Orange and Black. The park always seems brand new again.

It could not be a more gorgeous day. As I walked from my parking spot ($10 all day, yipee!) toward the ballpark, the sun was starting to rise above the Oakland Hills. I had a little moment where I thought, how wonderful would it be to have a little one with me to share the experience? Guess the "mommy urges" are stirring in me more often now! : )

There is not a cloud in the sky. I had to do a little walk around the ball park, just for memories sake. It wasn't long ago that I worked across the street and spent many days walking around the park at lunch. I noted that the crew was already out getting the field ready for this afternoon. Sometimes I dream about what it would be like to have such a seemingly laidback job.

I am now situated at Panera Bread where they have free wifi, good coffee & snacks and loads of space... but I am having a hard time concentrating on work. I feel like a little kid getting excited for the baseball season.

I need to cherish this feeling because I suspect I will experience different emotions this afternoon.... in light of the Giants' talent level this year. : (

I can't escape it..... GO GIANTS!

4.06.2008

Life is Precious

It didn't seem real until I saw this,

http://www.legacy.com/contracostatimes/DeathNotices.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonID=107040665

It's also a strange feeling cause I had only met him once but I do know that this is just such a life changing event for Amy and her daughters. Life as they know it will never be the same.

I won't be able to attend the service but Amy and her family will continue to remain in my thoughts. I have full faith that this experience will only strengthen their bond as a family.