5.23.2008
Okay Kathy just sent me this note... I feel a bit better now!
" Oh my gosh that is super cute about Lucy and her vacation plans. She’s going to have a ball with her ladies and her dog sitter and her (PetSitter) dvd and everything. When you come home, she’ll be like “Oh, it’s you. That’s nice. Now excuse me while I get back to my dvd”. That is freakin adorable that the neighborhood ladies have a soft spot for Miss Lucy, I guess she knows how to win friends and influence people. She’s going to be just fine!"
T.G.I.F -- more random than usual
TGIF holds so much more meaning when it is the Friday before a 3 day weekend. Yipee!!
In a nutshell, here's what's going on with me:
1. Dealing with conflicting emotions -- leaving my baby is going to be SOOO hard. (she had tears in her eyes the last time I left for just one week). Meanwhile I just spoke with Anna who will be joining me in Miami and I'm really excited for our upcoming trip.
2. First things first though... I gotta survive 3 more days of work, yet another company dinner and a couple of big presentations next week.
3. Fun stuff in store for the weekend: lunch with a pal in Danville on Saturday, Fun times with great friends in Sausalito on Sunday (I heart wine & art festivals), BBQ Bash at A's house on Sunday. A bit of baseball here and there, quality time with the pup, packing and relaxation should round things up and make it a GREAT weekend.
4. Yoga is getting easier and I'm starting to get addicted. I feel stronger and my body feels more alive too. May try a class on the cruise.
5. Barry Zito: 0 - 8 (first pitcher to start the season 0-8 since 1890!!) Do I laugh or cry? He's pitching tonight...
6. Learned another technology product in 10 minutes thanks to a competent Partner -- awesome!
In a nutshell, here's what's going on with me:
1. Dealing with conflicting emotions -- leaving my baby is going to be SOOO hard. (she had tears in her eyes the last time I left for just one week). Meanwhile I just spoke with Anna who will be joining me in Miami and I'm really excited for our upcoming trip.
2. First things first though... I gotta survive 3 more days of work, yet another company dinner and a couple of big presentations next week.
3. Fun stuff in store for the weekend: lunch with a pal in Danville on Saturday, Fun times with great friends in Sausalito on Sunday (I heart wine & art festivals), BBQ Bash at A's house on Sunday. A bit of baseball here and there, quality time with the pup, packing and relaxation should round things up and make it a GREAT weekend.
4. Yoga is getting easier and I'm starting to get addicted. I feel stronger and my body feels more alive too. May try a class on the cruise.
5. Barry Zito: 0 - 8 (first pitcher to start the season 0-8 since 1890!!) Do I laugh or cry? He's pitching tonight...
6. Learned another technology product in 10 minutes thanks to a competent Partner -- awesome!
5.22.2008
Blah blah blog
I'm not in the mood to blog, but feel obligated to do so. Lame, I know. I'll try to make this tolerable to you all, but I'm guessing it will be a lot of rambling blah blah blah. Guess inspiration comes and goes.
I have a not so fun call to make later this afternoon, and I'll be meeting a potential dog walker for Lucy for when we are away. Hopefully I can sneak in a yoga session in between.
It's funny, I started asking folks on the trail if they have recommendations for Dog Sitters/Walkers and it is amazing how many people offered to walk her themselves... she's certainly a much-loved dog!
I think I'll have her favorite walking ladies take her out in the a.m. as they walk about the same amount as Lucy is used to each day. Then, I'll have the Dog Sitter come for play and maybe a shorter walk later in the day. That, and with visits from her favorite Auntie A, hopefully she'll be so tired out, she won't even miss us!
I also realized yesterday upon doing a bit of research, that cell phone / internet access on the boat is stupendously expensive..... as in the range of $4.50/minute! Yikes. Looks like I won't be blogging for at least a week starting on the 31st. The week after, I'll be in Orlando dealing with tradeshow madness, so chances aren't so good then either. Guess I'll have to make note of my blogworthy anecdotes and play catch up upon my return.
I have a not so fun call to make later this afternoon, and I'll be meeting a potential dog walker for Lucy for when we are away. Hopefully I can sneak in a yoga session in between.
It's funny, I started asking folks on the trail if they have recommendations for Dog Sitters/Walkers and it is amazing how many people offered to walk her themselves... she's certainly a much-loved dog!
I think I'll have her favorite walking ladies take her out in the a.m. as they walk about the same amount as Lucy is used to each day. Then, I'll have the Dog Sitter come for play and maybe a shorter walk later in the day. That, and with visits from her favorite Auntie A, hopefully she'll be so tired out, she won't even miss us!
I also realized yesterday upon doing a bit of research, that cell phone / internet access on the boat is stupendously expensive..... as in the range of $4.50/minute! Yikes. Looks like I won't be blogging for at least a week starting on the 31st. The week after, I'll be in Orlando dealing with tradeshow madness, so chances aren't so good then either. Guess I'll have to make note of my blogworthy anecdotes and play catch up upon my return.
5.21.2008
Words of 2008 in my life
Here is a follow up to the 2008 words post... the 2008 words as they pertain to ME!
(see my previous post for reference, or you will be ultra confused)
My husband and I (verifiable mouse potatoes) strive to become Sitcoms someday. We do not currently live in Generica. However if we do become Sitcoms, more than likely that is where we will be! My parents on the other hand are Woofs... go figure.
At work, I seem to have a lot of salmon days and deal with many 404s regularly. My boss is definitely a stresspuppy.
I do suffer from an addiction to irritainment, looking forward to my US magazine delivery each Thursday afternoon.
To give you an idea of the kind of luck I have, I have swipeouts often and the Ohnoseconds come often.
Luckily I do not live in a cubicle, so I don't have to deal with cubefarms or prairiedogging, but cropdusting does occur 'round here!
(see my previous post for reference, or you will be ultra confused)
My husband and I (verifiable mouse potatoes) strive to become Sitcoms someday. We do not currently live in Generica. However if we do become Sitcoms, more than likely that is where we will be! My parents on the other hand are Woofs... go figure.
At work, I seem to have a lot of salmon days and deal with many 404s regularly. My boss is definitely a stresspuppy.
I do suffer from an addiction to irritainment, looking forward to my US magazine delivery each Thursday afternoon.
To give you an idea of the kind of luck I have, I have swipeouts often and the Ohnoseconds come often.
Luckily I do not live in a cubicle, so I don't have to deal with cubefarms or prairiedogging, but cropdusting does occur 'round here!
2008 Words
A friend sent me this list. I guess they are new words for 2008. There are some funny ones. I wanted to be sure to save the list, so I am posting it here!
1. BLAMESTORMING Sitting around in a group, discussing why a deadline was missed or a project failed, and who was responsible.
2.SEAGULL MANAGER: A manager, who flies in, makes a lot of noise, craps on everything, and then leaves.
3.ASSMOSIS: The process by which some people seem to absorb success and advancement by kissing up to the boss rather than working hard
4.SALMON DAY: The experience of spending an entire day swimming upstream only to get screwed and die in the end.
5. CUBE FARM : An office filled with cubicles.
6.PRAIRIE DOGGING : When someone yells or drops something loudly in a cube farm, and people's heads pop up over the walls to see what's going on.
7. MOUSE POTATO : The on-line, wired generation's answer to the couch potato.
8.SITCOMs: Single Income, Two Children, Oppressive Mortgage. What Yuppies get into when they have children and one of them stops working to stay home with the kids.
9.STRESS PUPPY: A person who seems to thrive on being stressed out and whiny.
10.SWIPEOUT: An ATM or credit card that has been rendered useless because magnetic strip is worn away from extensive use.
11.XEROX SUBSIDY: Euphemism for swiping free photocopies from one's workplace.
12.IRRITAINMENT: Entertainment and media spectacles that are Annoying but you find yourself unable to stop watching them.
13. PERCUSSIVE MAINTENANCE: The fine art of whacking the crap out of an electronic device to get it to work again.
14. ADMINISPHERE : The rarefied organizational layers beginning just above the rank and file. Decisions that fall from the adminisphere are often profoundly inappropriate or irrelevant to the problems they were designed to solve.
15. 404 : Someone who's clueless. From the World Wide Web error Message '404 Not Found,' meaning that the requested site could not be located.
16. GENERICA : Features of the American landscape that are exactly the same no matter where one is, such as fast food joints, strip malls, and subdivisions.
17.OHNOSECOND : That minuscule fraction of time in which you realize that you've just made a BIG mistake. (Like after hitting send on an email by mistake).
18.WOOFS: Well-Off Older Folks.
19. CROP DUSTING: Surreptitiously passing gas while passing through a Cube Farm.
1. BLAMESTORMING Sitting around in a group, discussing why a deadline was missed or a project failed, and who was responsible.
2.SEAGULL MANAGER: A manager, who flies in, makes a lot of noise, craps on everything, and then leaves.
3.ASSMOSIS: The process by which some people seem to absorb success and advancement by kissing up to the boss rather than working hard
4.SALMON DAY: The experience of spending an entire day swimming upstream only to get screwed and die in the end.
5. CUBE FARM : An office filled with cubicles.
6.PRAIRIE DOGGING : When someone yells or drops something loudly in a cube farm, and people's heads pop up over the walls to see what's going on.
7. MOUSE POTATO : The on-line, wired generation's answer to the couch potato.
8.SITCOMs: Single Income, Two Children, Oppressive Mortgage. What Yuppies get into when they have children and one of them stops working to stay home with the kids.
9.STRESS PUPPY: A person who seems to thrive on being stressed out and whiny.
10.SWIPEOUT: An ATM or credit card that has been rendered useless because magnetic strip is worn away from extensive use.
11.XEROX SUBSIDY: Euphemism for swiping free photocopies from one's workplace.
12.IRRITAINMENT: Entertainment and media spectacles that are Annoying but you find yourself unable to stop watching them.
13. PERCUSSIVE MAINTENANCE: The fine art of whacking the crap out of an electronic device to get it to work again.
14. ADMINISPHERE : The rarefied organizational layers beginning just above the rank and file. Decisions that fall from the adminisphere are often profoundly inappropriate or irrelevant to the problems they were designed to solve.
15. 404 : Someone who's clueless. From the World Wide Web error Message '404 Not Found,' meaning that the requested site could not be located.
16. GENERICA : Features of the American landscape that are exactly the same no matter where one is, such as fast food joints, strip malls, and subdivisions.
17.OHNOSECOND : That minuscule fraction of time in which you realize that you've just made a BIG mistake. (Like after hitting send on an email by mistake).
18.WOOFS: Well-Off Older Folks.
19. CROP DUSTING: Surreptitiously passing gas while passing through a Cube Farm.
Life is Good
Today I'm "working" in the backyard while our housecleaner does her thing. Can I please get someone to turn the wind down a notch? My papers are flying everywhere... thanks!
I'm listening to baseball on the radio, staring at some beautiful redwood trees and trying not to notice the dry, almost brown lawn (there is a water ban going on in my neighborhood). I can't complain too much.
Plus it's a long weekend this weekend and I have fun plans on the agenda.
I'm listening to baseball on the radio, staring at some beautiful redwood trees and trying not to notice the dry, almost brown lawn (there is a water ban going on in my neighborhood). I can't complain too much.
Plus it's a long weekend this weekend and I have fun plans on the agenda.
Icing on the cake is I'm off for vacation in about a week. 5 day cruise to Bermuda with the in-laws... hopefully noone goes overboard! Naw, I'm just joshing... I actually like my in-laws, so all should go well.
Just gotta survive 5 more work days...
5.20.2008
Minor blip in an otherwise fabulous day
I can't believe I didn't blog about this yesterday!
Sunday afternoon I met up with my favorite gal, A, for a quickie snack / glass of wine - BR Cohn Chardonnay to be exact (we were both craving it as they had run out of Chardonnay at the BR Cohn WINERY when were were there the day before - isn't that against the law in California?)
Anyhoo, we were relaxing on the patio while Lucy charmed the other customers, enjoying a perfect afternoon. All of a sudden, we heard a loud bang. I looked toward the sound and realized someone had just backed into MY car! I was so worried they would drive off, so I ran over and started waving him down. Luckily he was already getting out of the car and seemed shocked that there was something behind hime.
Side note: I did notice he was wearing a Bay to Breakers t-shirt and I do remember that post-race dazed and confused state of mind (it hasn't been THAT long since I was an avid runner)
At first I didn't think there was any damage but then I noticed a huge crack to the side of my license plate on my bumper. His back hitch had hit my license plate and the impact caused the bumper to crack.
Luckily the other driver was very cooperative and apologized a few times. We exchanged information and he went on his way and I went back to my Chardonnay...
Of COURSE, dealing with the insurance adjusters has not be quite so smooth.... Is it just me or could these people care less about their job?
Sunday afternoon I met up with my favorite gal, A, for a quickie snack / glass of wine - BR Cohn Chardonnay to be exact (we were both craving it as they had run out of Chardonnay at the BR Cohn WINERY when were were there the day before - isn't that against the law in California?)
Anyhoo, we were relaxing on the patio while Lucy charmed the other customers, enjoying a perfect afternoon. All of a sudden, we heard a loud bang. I looked toward the sound and realized someone had just backed into MY car! I was so worried they would drive off, so I ran over and started waving him down. Luckily he was already getting out of the car and seemed shocked that there was something behind hime.
Side note: I did notice he was wearing a Bay to Breakers t-shirt and I do remember that post-race dazed and confused state of mind (it hasn't been THAT long since I was an avid runner)
At first I didn't think there was any damage but then I noticed a huge crack to the side of my license plate on my bumper. His back hitch had hit my license plate and the impact caused the bumper to crack.
Luckily the other driver was very cooperative and apologized a few times. We exchanged information and he went on his way and I went back to my Chardonnay...
Of COURSE, dealing with the insurance adjusters has not be quite so smooth.... Is it just me or could these people care less about their job?
5.19.2008
Post # 101!
I was so surprised to log in to blogger and learn that I've published 100 posts to my blog so far!
I know there are folks out there with thousands of blog entries, but this feels like an accomplishment to me.
Mondays are always my most least inspired of days, but let's see if I can come up with something witty, intelligent, or meaningful... fat chance!
Last week during our weekly company meeting, the topic of earthquakes came up... namely the ginormous quake that is estimated to hit the bay area in the next ~10 years. My boss then told us he had heard that scientists were actually considering pouring a bunch of baby powder down the fault line so that when the earthquake finally hits, the plates will move smoother, resulting in a less devastating situation. ???
I asked him if Johnson & Johnson was sponsoring the project. That just sounds like an urban legend if you ask me! In fact I am going to Google this now... watch this space.
UPDATE:
I could not find anything to this effect, but in the following article, they do reference looking to see if talc exists deep in the faultline core... hmmmm, verrrry interesting.
http://tinyurl.com/3ouane
I know there are folks out there with thousands of blog entries, but this feels like an accomplishment to me.
Mondays are always my most least inspired of days, but let's see if I can come up with something witty, intelligent, or meaningful... fat chance!
Last week during our weekly company meeting, the topic of earthquakes came up... namely the ginormous quake that is estimated to hit the bay area in the next ~10 years. My boss then told us he had heard that scientists were actually considering pouring a bunch of baby powder down the fault line so that when the earthquake finally hits, the plates will move smoother, resulting in a less devastating situation. ???
I asked him if Johnson & Johnson was sponsoring the project. That just sounds like an urban legend if you ask me! In fact I am going to Google this now... watch this space.
UPDATE:
I could not find anything to this effect, but in the following article, they do reference looking to see if talc exists deep in the faultline core... hmmmm, verrrry interesting.
http://tinyurl.com/3ouane
5.16.2008
Friday Chronicle
One of my new favorite bloggers (who I found on Twitter, reference my previous post)... posts a bulleted list on Fridays... it's simply a list of short topics, plans for the weekend and other tidbits.
I've decided I'm going to follow her style. I am definitely much more random than usual on Fridays, so this should make it easier for me to follow my "blog each workday" rule.
* my practitioner says that as long as I'm "good" 80% of the time, they are satisfied.
I've decided I'm going to follow her style. I am definitely much more random than usual on Fridays, so this should make it easier for me to follow my "blog each workday" rule.
- It's HOT but supposed to start cooling off. Lucy is miserable.
- I may be in the city on Sunday and I just know it will be freezing once the fog rolls in.
- Getting my hair done tomorrow, then off to a party at BRCohn in Napa -- and YES, I WILL be drinking wine. (80% rule, baby*).
- Starting to look forward to a fun cruise to Bermuda, leaving at the end of the month.
- In summary, this week I've learned more than I have learned the rest of the year so far (did I mention how much I love Twitter?)
- Pete won his first online poker tournament. Check out his blog. I'm a proud wife!
- The Giants are starting to show their true colors -- there were a couple of truly DISASTROUS games this week.
- I predict Jason Cook will be crowned American Idol this year (pretty safe bet).
* my practitioner says that as long as I'm "good" 80% of the time, they are satisfied.
5.15.2008
Welcome to my new world..
So my Eastern Medicine "Practitioner" (not sure what the correct word is) told me today that I can only drink liquids that are room temperature, warm or preferably hot...
She tells me this on the hottest day of the season so far (it's easily 100 degrees). Gulp, just before my appointment I had devoured an icy fruitsicle.
So, now I'm blogging drinking hot tea feeling like a dumb A and I had to take all of my cold drinks out of the refrigerator. Sigh.
But, all in all, I feel positive about my new Eastern Medicine Plan. My practitioner spent 45 minutes with me talking about the various procedures in store for me. She told me they would mix an herbal remedy. And of course she described my new diet... pretty much I will not be able to eat out in an actual restaurant anytime in the near future.
There goes my social life, officially.
The good news is I didn't have to pay a dime, the first consultation was FREE! In contrast my previous "practitioner" charged me $275 the moment I walked in the door. Guess that's just one of the many differences between Eastern and Western medicine.
She tells me this on the hottest day of the season so far (it's easily 100 degrees). Gulp, just before my appointment I had devoured an icy fruitsicle.
So, now I'm blogging drinking hot tea feeling like a dumb A and I had to take all of my cold drinks out of the refrigerator. Sigh.
But, all in all, I feel positive about my new Eastern Medicine Plan. My practitioner spent 45 minutes with me talking about the various procedures in store for me. She told me they would mix an herbal remedy. And of course she described my new diet... pretty much I will not be able to eat out in an actual restaurant anytime in the near future.
There goes my social life, officially.
The good news is I didn't have to pay a dime, the first consultation was FREE! In contrast my previous "practitioner" charged me $275 the moment I walked in the door. Guess that's just one of the many differences between Eastern and Western medicine.
Old Age...
brings senility...
This morning, I ransacked my house for 15 minutes in search of my keys.
Finally I went out to my car and the keys were in the ignition, doors unlocked overnight.
Yikes, I'm only 37... am I losing it?
Oh! On the topic of my advance age, I have my first acupuncture appointment this afternoon... I'm a bit nervous as needles freak me out.
Wish me luck!
This morning, I ransacked my house for 15 minutes in search of my keys.
Finally I went out to my car and the keys were in the ignition, doors unlocked overnight.
Yikes, I'm only 37... am I losing it?
Oh! On the topic of my advance age, I have my first acupuncture appointment this afternoon... I'm a bit nervous as needles freak me out.
Wish me luck!
5.14.2008
Speaking of OCD...
I just read this article (from Twitter of COURSE),
http://tinyurl.com/3te7wj
The Chumby is a little "pet" that sits on your desk and displays widgets or mini-programs of all kinds. Examples: streaming media, weather updates, YouTube videos, etc.
Talk about serious stimulation and distraction overload. I have enough to distract me on my PC, I certainly don't need more.
Or perhaps my OCD just hasn't gotten that advanced... yet.
http://tinyurl.com/3te7wj
The Chumby is a little "pet" that sits on your desk and displays widgets or mini-programs of all kinds. Examples: streaming media, weather updates, YouTube videos, etc.
Talk about serious stimulation and distraction overload. I have enough to distract me on my PC, I certainly don't need more.
Or perhaps my OCD just hasn't gotten that advanced... yet.
WARNING: People with OCD should stay away from Twitter
Yikes! Somehow I've found a new addiction.
How did this happen?
Innocently enough, as addictions usually do... An simple email invitation from my girl, A.
I thought, Twitter? What the heck is that? A quick visit to the website did not tell me much. But when I finally figured it out and suddenly received a text message from my great friend, I thought, "hmm.... okay, pretty cool".
Come to find out, you can search for anyone in the world and "follow" them, assuming their account is open to the public. I found myself searching on Bill Gates, George Bush, Martha Stewart. As of yet, it seems to be that the majority of the members are techie geeks or savvy bloggers who want another medium to express themselves.
I am now following Guy Kawasaki, the Silicon Valley VC maven and a bunch of other technologists. The way it works is when folks post to their account via email, web, IM or text message, everyone who follows them receives that message either on the web or via text message. It's like instant messaging for the world.
So now, suddenly, I am being bombarded with a constant stream of information. I gotta say, I'm LOVING it. I'm getting great information that will certainly be valuable to me as a technology sales person and it satisfies my obsessive - compulsive need for constant stimulation. I find myself constantly hitting refresh to get my updates on the web. My favorite followee alerts are set to be sent to my blackberry.
I probably need to weed down my followee list, otherwise, I may lose my job due to the fact that I'm spending all of my time learning random stuff and not selling my existing technology solutions!
How did this happen?
Innocently enough, as addictions usually do... An simple email invitation from my girl, A.
I thought, Twitter? What the heck is that? A quick visit to the website did not tell me much. But when I finally figured it out and suddenly received a text message from my great friend, I thought, "hmm.... okay, pretty cool".
Come to find out, you can search for anyone in the world and "follow" them, assuming their account is open to the public. I found myself searching on Bill Gates, George Bush, Martha Stewart. As of yet, it seems to be that the majority of the members are techie geeks or savvy bloggers who want another medium to express themselves.
I am now following Guy Kawasaki, the Silicon Valley VC maven and a bunch of other technologists. The way it works is when folks post to their account via email, web, IM or text message, everyone who follows them receives that message either on the web or via text message. It's like instant messaging for the world.
So now, suddenly, I am being bombarded with a constant stream of information. I gotta say, I'm LOVING it. I'm getting great information that will certainly be valuable to me as a technology sales person and it satisfies my obsessive - compulsive need for constant stimulation. I find myself constantly hitting refresh to get my updates on the web. My favorite followee alerts are set to be sent to my blackberry.
I probably need to weed down my followee list, otherwise, I may lose my job due to the fact that I'm spending all of my time learning random stuff and not selling my existing technology solutions!
In The Valley of Elah
Pete and I watched this movie Sunday night and I can't stop thinking about it. It was quite intense and disturbing.
I am wondering why the movie didn't get more hype at the Oscars? I think that the American public are still not quite ready for stories of the Iraq war. Especially a movie that portrays the effects of the war on returning soldiers so damaging.
Tommy Lee Jones' performance was masterful. I have a new appreciation for him as an actor. The competition was pretty fierce for best Actor at the Oscars last year, so I can see why he didn't win that role. However, the movie was not even nominated for any other categories.
Luckily I rented 27 Dresses today, so perhaps that will help me I'll get myself into a more lighthearted frame of mind!
I am wondering why the movie didn't get more hype at the Oscars? I think that the American public are still not quite ready for stories of the Iraq war. Especially a movie that portrays the effects of the war on returning soldiers so damaging.
Tommy Lee Jones' performance was masterful. I have a new appreciation for him as an actor. The competition was pretty fierce for best Actor at the Oscars last year, so I can see why he didn't win that role. However, the movie was not even nominated for any other categories.
Luckily I rented 27 Dresses today, so perhaps that will help me I'll get myself into a more lighthearted frame of mind!
Glad I kicked the caffeine addition...
It takes 189 cups of Diet Coke Coffee to kill sheila.
... Although, I suppose I won't be drinking 189 cups!
See how many cups it takes to kill YOU:
5.13.2008
The do gooders in the world - can I be one?
I have been thinking a lot about the truly altruistic people in this world. I have a great friend who belongs to this group of individuals. She is working for a non-profit that provides technology to areas which have been devastated by a disaster. Obviously they are quite busy in light of the recent tragedies in Myanmar and China.
Her influence has rubbed off on me... at least a little bit (I'm still selfish as ever). I've spent a lot of time in recent months searching for a suitable volunteer project that I can participate in. You'd think that it would be easy to go contribute your time to a worthy cause. Not necessarily. Many of the opportunities need help during work week hours. Many require a commitment of a few weekends in a row for orientation or training. Some of them require special technical or medical skills. Some of them just don't call you back. I thought I found a great opportunity helping the American Cancer Society with their Relay for life event. I actually got a woman on the phone who excitedly said that, yes! They need help. She said she'd contact me when they get their initial volunteer meeting scheduled. I am still waiting for that call....
Should I take a hint? Is my selfishness that transparent?
Anyways... I guess I'll keep looking but if you know of a worthy non-profit in the East Bay Area that will allow me to contribute time in the early evenings or weekends without bureaucratic red tape, send 'em my way.
Her influence has rubbed off on me... at least a little bit (I'm still selfish as ever). I've spent a lot of time in recent months searching for a suitable volunteer project that I can participate in. You'd think that it would be easy to go contribute your time to a worthy cause. Not necessarily. Many of the opportunities need help during work week hours. Many require a commitment of a few weekends in a row for orientation or training. Some of them require special technical or medical skills. Some of them just don't call you back. I thought I found a great opportunity helping the American Cancer Society with their Relay for life event. I actually got a woman on the phone who excitedly said that, yes! They need help. She said she'd contact me when they get their initial volunteer meeting scheduled. I am still waiting for that call....
Should I take a hint? Is my selfishness that transparent?
Anyways... I guess I'll keep looking but if you know of a worthy non-profit in the East Bay Area that will allow me to contribute time in the early evenings or weekends without bureaucratic red tape, send 'em my way.
I hate to admit it...
A friend forwarded me one of those horoscope emails... you know, the ones where you gotta forward to x number of friends or you will have x number of years of bad luck.
This one is spookily accurate. (especially the beautiful inside and out description) ; )
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.
This one is spookily accurate. (especially the beautiful inside and out description) ; )
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.
Good things happen to good people (sometimes)
I learned today that a great friend of mine who I do not see often enough is going to be a daddy.
I feel privileged to be one of only a few to learn the good news. His excitement was obvious from his email and there is no doubt in my mind that he'll be a great daddy.
I have not met his partner but I know that she is someone very special. The last time I saw my friend, he had many questions for me about the time when Pete and I had broken up for a 6 month period (many many years ago, before we were married, of course). He also mentioned that he was back in touch with this gal.
I recall thinking, "hmmmm..." and sure enough a couple of months later, they were back together with plans to get serious.
My friend is a great guy who has been single much of the time I've known him. He is the IT Director at a company where I used to work at. I know first hand his dedication to work, his commitment to excellence and his never ending desire to improve the company.
As a friend, I appreciate his kindness, generosity, and loyalty.... And, he has a fantastic sense of humor.
This baby will be something else, and I am very excited for the family.
I feel privileged to be one of only a few to learn the good news. His excitement was obvious from his email and there is no doubt in my mind that he'll be a great daddy.
I have not met his partner but I know that she is someone very special. The last time I saw my friend, he had many questions for me about the time when Pete and I had broken up for a 6 month period (many many years ago, before we were married, of course). He also mentioned that he was back in touch with this gal.
I recall thinking, "hmmmm..." and sure enough a couple of months later, they were back together with plans to get serious.
My friend is a great guy who has been single much of the time I've known him. He is the IT Director at a company where I used to work at. I know first hand his dedication to work, his commitment to excellence and his never ending desire to improve the company.
As a friend, I appreciate his kindness, generosity, and loyalty.... And, he has a fantastic sense of humor.
This baby will be something else, and I am very excited for the family.
5.12.2008
Bright Spot
Top 3 things that made me happy this weekend:
1. Friday night drinks with great girlffriends at the St. Regis -- the lobby bar is just so elegant, I always feel so fancy here.
1. Omar Vizquel back in the line-up baby. I have the biggest crush on this guy. : )
http://tinyurl.com/5v96ky
2. Chill out Sunday afternoon lunch with my favorite people at one of my favorite new joints, Sideboard.
http://tinyurl.com/69yj5w
1. Friday night drinks with great girlffriends at the St. Regis -- the lobby bar is just so elegant, I always feel so fancy here.
1. Omar Vizquel back in the line-up baby. I have the biggest crush on this guy. : )
http://tinyurl.com/5v96ky
2. Chill out Sunday afternoon lunch with my favorite people at one of my favorite new joints, Sideboard.
http://tinyurl.com/69yj5w
5.09.2008
5.08.2008
another sad story
Every now and then you hear a tragic story... a parent accidentally leaves their kid in a heated car, or a toddler drowns in a pool, etc. These stories break my heart every time. I seem to read about these episodes too often for my comfort level.
This morning a woman in Pittsburgh accidentally ran over her 6 year old daughter who was riding a tricycle behind her car. The girl died.
How do you live with yourself if you are the mother? I cannot fathom it. I like to think I will be a parent with awareness. But accidents happen, and you can never guarantee they won't happen to you.
This morning a woman in Pittsburgh accidentally ran over her 6 year old daughter who was riding a tricycle behind her car. The girl died.
How do you live with yourself if you are the mother? I cannot fathom it. I like to think I will be a parent with awareness. But accidents happen, and you can never guarantee they won't happen to you.
Clean Living
I have been eating so healthy, I think my toilet is deriving benefits!
(sorry)
I feel like I've learned more in the past week than I've learned in the past year.... With knowledge, comes further questioning and interest, so I've become a search engine hound - seeking more and more information on the subject of Eastern Medicine. I'm also looking forward to my accupuncture appointment next week.
I've come to realize that the body is a fragile system that relies on proper balance to function properly. Chinese medicine works by getting each organ back in balance. It also works to establish proper functioning of blood flow to each of the organs.
The confusion comes when you aren't quite sure which aspect of your body is out of balance. In comparing my symptoms to the corresponding diagnosis, it seems like I could be off balance in multiple areas. So which remedy should I follow?
One remedy prescribes to eat lots of soy beans, the other says to stay away from soy products.
One remedy says to eat lots of pineapple, the other says to eat lots of raspberries.
One says eat lots of eggs, the other says stay away from dairy & cheese.
My diet has certainly become much more varied in the past week or so... bring on the wheatgrass, spirulina and tofu!
(sorry)
I feel like I've learned more in the past week than I've learned in the past year.... With knowledge, comes further questioning and interest, so I've become a search engine hound - seeking more and more information on the subject of Eastern Medicine. I'm also looking forward to my accupuncture appointment next week.
I've come to realize that the body is a fragile system that relies on proper balance to function properly. Chinese medicine works by getting each organ back in balance. It also works to establish proper functioning of blood flow to each of the organs.
The confusion comes when you aren't quite sure which aspect of your body is out of balance. In comparing my symptoms to the corresponding diagnosis, it seems like I could be off balance in multiple areas. So which remedy should I follow?
One remedy prescribes to eat lots of soy beans, the other says to stay away from soy products.
One remedy says to eat lots of pineapple, the other says to eat lots of raspberries.
One says eat lots of eggs, the other says stay away from dairy & cheese.
My diet has certainly become much more varied in the past week or so... bring on the wheatgrass, spirulina and tofu!
5.07.2008
Okay, now we're getting hokey..
I'm onto the "positive affirmation" section of the Eastern Medicine book...
They recommend spending about 15 minutes a day repeating the following affirmations:
I am healthy and happy, my hormone levels are balanced.
My cycle is in tune with my body's natural rhythm.
I will conceive a healthy baby when I make the conscious decision to do so.
I believe in myself, for I am incredible.
I am taking charge of your own fertility.
Come on now! Are you kidding? I think I need to draw the line here. What's next? patchouli and nude colonies? I gotta keep my mojo, people. : )
They recommend spending about 15 minutes a day repeating the following affirmations:
I am healthy and happy, my hormone levels are balanced.
My cycle is in tune with my body's natural rhythm.
I will conceive a healthy baby when I make the conscious decision to do so.
I believe in myself, for I am incredible.
I am taking charge of your own fertility.
Come on now! Are you kidding? I think I need to draw the line here. What's next? patchouli and nude colonies? I gotta keep my mojo, people. : )
5.06.2008
Inflexible
...That's me! I did 30 minutes of an hour long yoga tape yesterday... I am sore today, yikes!
As part of my new health kick, I've started deep breathing, stretching and yoga.
I have been pretty active most of my adult life... an avid runner and cyclist for years. After one too many running injuries, I retired from running and I'm now a "Lucy walker". Clearly, those sports do nothing for one's flexibility. I am humbled.
As part of my new health kick, I've started deep breathing, stretching and yoga.
I have been pretty active most of my adult life... an avid runner and cyclist for years. After one too many running injuries, I retired from running and I'm now a "Lucy walker". Clearly, those sports do nothing for one's flexibility. I am humbled.
5.05.2008
The value of friendship
I make darn sure I enjoy every weekend... every moment of the two days off of work are precious to me. I am lucky enough to have wonderful people (and canines!) in my life to help make weekends enjoyable.
I made a realization this weekend... there is nothing more valuable than best girlfriends who you can just BE with, trust, and never feel the concern of offending them. There is no pretense, no judgment, no posturing... Just appreciation, understanding and respect for each other. We appreciate our similarities as well as our differences. If one is having a problem, we try to lend and ear, offer consolation and suggest solutions. There is no bravado or jealousy, even though one of us might be in a better position financially or more successful personally or careerwise. Icing on the cake is a friend who you can have fun with and laugh with.
It is rare to find people in this world who you can develop such a relationship with. Let's face it, you aren't necessarily going to have this type of relationship with family members.
Here's to great friends... I feel blessed to have them in my life!
A new approach
I have made a turn in my pursuit to become fertile... I realized this weekend that the process I have been in just isn't working. So, I'm going a different route. Instead of following orders and pumping mysterious synthetic products into my system (oh yeah and spending a boatload of my insurance company's money), I am going to take on an active role. From now on, I'm calling the shots. (I can talk big can't I?) : )
We'll see how I feel in a coupla months... but, for now, I feel good about my new "project".
I had already cut out caffeine, artificial sweetener and alcohol - well, in order to not feel deprived, I will allot myself a glass or so of vino per week : )
I figure, why not? Let's go all out! I bought a book on Chinese medicine and fertility. I can't put it down. It's fascinating. Every single thing I've read thus far makes just too much sense.
The contrast between Eastern and Western medicine is stark. They give is following analogy: Western medicine is like throwing fertlizer on a plant, whereas Eastern medicine is about creating a fertile ground, using compost, etc.
So... in the fertility world, the Western medicine approach is to identify which hormones are lacking then hyperstimulate the system with synthetic hormones. Conversely, the Eastern medicine approach is the get the body back to a balanced state hormonally so the body does what it is supposed to do... for women, it's have babies. Duh!!! How much sense does that make? It's almost laughable.
I also booked an appointment at an acupuncture clinic that specializes in fertility, and I may go get some Chinese herbs too. It could just be that I need to get my Qi back. (if you don't know what that means, go get a Chinese medicine book!)
I will keep you updated... watch this space!
We'll see how I feel in a coupla months... but, for now, I feel good about my new "project".
I had already cut out caffeine, artificial sweetener and alcohol - well, in order to not feel deprived, I will allot myself a glass or so of vino per week : )
I figure, why not? Let's go all out! I bought a book on Chinese medicine and fertility. I can't put it down. It's fascinating. Every single thing I've read thus far makes just too much sense.
The contrast between Eastern and Western medicine is stark. They give is following analogy: Western medicine is like throwing fertlizer on a plant, whereas Eastern medicine is about creating a fertile ground, using compost, etc.
So... in the fertility world, the Western medicine approach is to identify which hormones are lacking then hyperstimulate the system with synthetic hormones. Conversely, the Eastern medicine approach is the get the body back to a balanced state hormonally so the body does what it is supposed to do... for women, it's have babies. Duh!!! How much sense does that make? It's almost laughable.
I also booked an appointment at an acupuncture clinic that specializes in fertility, and I may go get some Chinese herbs too. It could just be that I need to get my Qi back. (if you don't know what that means, go get a Chinese medicine book!)
I will keep you updated... watch this space!
5.02.2008
The lion
Last night I dreamt that I was in a car driving on Danville boulevard. I saw a mother and her two daughters on the side of the road and just to the left of them, appeared a lion. The mother panicked and she and the two daughters ran across Danville Blvd... the lion proceeded to chase the girls.
All of a sudden, my sister Laura appeared. She had jumped out of the car behind us to go save the girls. So, the lion then decided to go after Laura. It was so vivid and the lion pounced so quickly that I swore Laura was history.
Before I had time to react or do anything, I woke up. Reflecting on the dream, I think about how Laura reacted but I didn't. That definitely speaks to our characters. Laura is definitely the more compassionate of the two of us.
I found Dream Moods, an online Dream Dictionary. Here is what they say about lions appearing in dreams:
"To see a lion in your dream, symbolizes great strength, aggression and power. You will overcome your emotions and/or difficulties. As king of the jungle, the lion also represents royalty, leadership, pride and dominion. You have much influence over others. You may also need to exercise restraint in your own personal and social life."
Royalty? I don't think so, but I'll take the rest of it as a positive.
All of a sudden, my sister Laura appeared. She had jumped out of the car behind us to go save the girls. So, the lion then decided to go after Laura. It was so vivid and the lion pounced so quickly that I swore Laura was history.
Before I had time to react or do anything, I woke up. Reflecting on the dream, I think about how Laura reacted but I didn't. That definitely speaks to our characters. Laura is definitely the more compassionate of the two of us.
I found Dream Moods, an online Dream Dictionary. Here is what they say about lions appearing in dreams:
"To see a lion in your dream, symbolizes great strength, aggression and power. You will overcome your emotions and/or difficulties. As king of the jungle, the lion also represents royalty, leadership, pride and dominion. You have much influence over others. You may also need to exercise restraint in your own personal and social life."
Royalty? I don't think so, but I'll take the rest of it as a positive.
Worried Mama...
This morning Lucy and I went on our daily "walkie". When we got to her favorite part where the trail opens up and there's a nice sized meadow where she can sprint around and around, I noted that the grass had gotten quite dry and tall.
About an hour after we returned home, Lucy started sneezing uncontrollably, clearly she was in agony. It wasn't subsiding so Pete took her to the vet.
Apparently she got a foxtail up her nose and they would need to sedate her and use forceps to get it out. Poor baby! She's at the vet now and the house seems so empty without her.
Oh, I must mention the pricetag for the vet visit: $420! Ouch. Ayelet told me, "you could stay at a five star hotel for that price!" Double ouch. Oh well, my Lucy is worth 5 stars!
5.01.2008
Just like a drug
My girlfriend, Ayelet, wrote about this topic, so I am going to copy her! : )
I have weaned myself off caffeine. It's been going well... except for the dull headache I seem to have constantly.
This afternoon I was drinking one of those new & hip enhanced water drinks, called "Alive". It tasted pretty good!
I started to read the bottle and there was actually a note that the drink has as much caffeine as a cup of coffee, as a benefit of course... doh!
No wonder that headache subsided for a while.
I have weaned myself off caffeine. It's been going well... except for the dull headache I seem to have constantly.
This afternoon I was drinking one of those new & hip enhanced water drinks, called "Alive". It tasted pretty good!
I started to read the bottle and there was actually a note that the drink has as much caffeine as a cup of coffee, as a benefit of course... doh!
No wonder that headache subsided for a while.
dreams
I have been having really whacky dreams lately... verging on psychotic. I am usually late to meet someone and I find myself lost in a crazy land I don't recognize. Last night there was a big gray and white fluffy dog (not Lucy?!?) who would take my finger in its mouth and flub (is that a word? dunno but it is the only way I can describe it) its lips around my finger. Bizarre. Then, I had my violin bow out... not sure what I was doing, but I recall feeling distraught cause the horsehair had completely fallen off.
What does that mean?!?! Am I losing it?
What does that mean?!?! Am I losing it?
4.30.2008
It's the last day of the month!
Update: Giants won today!
Unfortunately I was too busy today to spend much quality time watching the game, but I'm happy they won.
Something happened to the internet connection at my boss' house (yes, it is crazy, but our "corporate" server resides at his home!) so working was truly painful as every application we use was ridiculously slow.
I got the funniest email from the IT Director of a large East Coast University who had all but promised to purchase software from me by the end of April. He wrote me a 3 paragraph email that was basically a sob story about why he could not buy now but needed to wait until July 1 (school budgets are weird).
Too funny... I have never received an email like that before. I ended up working with him to commit to a purchase so he could secure the "special deal" that expires at the end of today. Truth be told, I wouldn't have cared if the order were to arrive tomorrow, but I felt like I should get the signed piece of paper just in case.
I really like this man and I intend to do everything I can to ensure things go smoothly for them. It is so refreshing to deal with a prospect who is honest, upfront and even HUMAN. He also bent over backward to get me what I needed, so I felt a sense of respect I usually do not get.
Unfortunately I was too busy today to spend much quality time watching the game, but I'm happy they won.
Something happened to the internet connection at my boss' house (yes, it is crazy, but our "corporate" server resides at his home!) so working was truly painful as every application we use was ridiculously slow.
I got the funniest email from the IT Director of a large East Coast University who had all but promised to purchase software from me by the end of April. He wrote me a 3 paragraph email that was basically a sob story about why he could not buy now but needed to wait until July 1 (school budgets are weird).
Too funny... I have never received an email like that before. I ended up working with him to commit to a purchase so he could secure the "special deal" that expires at the end of today. Truth be told, I wouldn't have cared if the order were to arrive tomorrow, but I felt like I should get the signed piece of paper just in case.
I really like this man and I intend to do everything I can to ensure things go smoothly for them. It is so refreshing to deal with a prospect who is honest, upfront and even HUMAN. He also bent over backward to get me what I needed, so I felt a sense of respect I usually do not get.
Baseball in the Afternoon
I'm getting ready to watch the final game of the Giants vs. Rockies series... I love day baseball and luckily since I work from home, I can have the game on in the background while I work (sshhh! Don't tell my boss!)
I am pleasantly surprised by how well the Giants are doing this year. I truly thought they would be an embarrassment to the Bay Area. Instead, they are young, scrappy, and eager to win. It's also fun to see so many of the young'uns stealing bases all the time -- we sure didn't have much of THAT the past few years.
Management seems committed to doing what they need to do to win as well. Barry Zito (see my blog on 4.23.2008) has been demoted to the Bull Pen -- as my KNBR morning guys say, "thank you GOD!" (you gotta hear the sound byte to get the full effect).
I'm not dumb enough to believe they have a chance at the playoffs, but hey, it's a start!
4.29.2008
The right verdict
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2008/04/29/BAKU10DLNG.DTL&tsp=1
I am surprised by the news that the jury found him guilty of 1st degree murder, given no body has been found... but I'm happy with their decision.
There was just too much circumstantial evidence. I have been following this murder story and trial. It is shocking to me that this happened right here in the Bay Area and Nina seemed like someone who I could be friends with.
I am surprised by the news that the jury found him guilty of 1st degree murder, given no body has been found... but I'm happy with their decision.
There was just too much circumstantial evidence. I have been following this murder story and trial. It is shocking to me that this happened right here in the Bay Area and Nina seemed like someone who I could be friends with.
The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
I found myself a bit envious of the check out gal at Safeway this morning. She has been working there for many years so she knows me by now -- it's kinda creepy how grocery store checkout folks know so much about their clientele based on their purchases. I digress.
I don't even know this gal's name, but she is eternally friendly, cheerful and has that "customer service atttude" that never seems to wane... regardless of what crazy, grocery store related dilemmas occur.
Sometimes I miss that job where at the end of your day or shift, you truly leave work behind. In the corporate world, our careers encompasses every aspect of life. No escape... we dream (or have nightmares!) about it, we research ways to be better at it, etc. Most importantly our work affords us the ability to enjoy life outside of the office
I have literally done it ALL in my life so far: waitress (seriously... the. most. stressful. job), pants presser at the dry cleaners, newspaper delivery gal, catering assistant, receptionist, games attendant at Great America, house cleaner, I have even cleaned test tubes before!
I'm proud of my "checkered past" and it does make me appreciate my current career, but there are times when I miss the low stress, low commitment, low brain power situation...
But I also know that given the choice to go back, I wouldn't!!
I don't even know this gal's name, but she is eternally friendly, cheerful and has that "customer service atttude" that never seems to wane... regardless of what crazy, grocery store related dilemmas occur.
Sometimes I miss that job where at the end of your day or shift, you truly leave work behind. In the corporate world, our careers encompasses every aspect of life. No escape... we dream (or have nightmares!) about it, we research ways to be better at it, etc. Most importantly our work affords us the ability to enjoy life outside of the office
I have literally done it ALL in my life so far: waitress (seriously... the. most. stressful. job), pants presser at the dry cleaners, newspaper delivery gal, catering assistant, receptionist, games attendant at Great America, house cleaner, I have even cleaned test tubes before!
I'm proud of my "checkered past" and it does make me appreciate my current career, but there are times when I miss the low stress, low commitment, low brain power situation...
But I also know that given the choice to go back, I wouldn't!!
Ironic
I heard this morning that the "Free Tibet" flags many protesters are waving... were made in China!
4.28.2008
Roller Coaster Ride
I'm having a rough morning. After another fun filled weekend, I should be feeling energized and inspired. Instead I feel drained and empty.
I get too optimistic about stuff then when things don't work out... well, let's just say I don't deal well with disappointment. When I want something, I typically get it... usually I get what I want by working hard, persevering, drive, discipline, etc.
With the situation I'm in currently, I have no control of anything that happens. I have given the controls to my doctors, I've cut out caffeine and alcohol, started eating healthier than ever and I pop vitamins like crazy. What else can I do?
I get too optimistic about stuff then when things don't work out... well, let's just say I don't deal well with disappointment. When I want something, I typically get it... usually I get what I want by working hard, persevering, drive, discipline, etc.
With the situation I'm in currently, I have no control of anything that happens. I have given the controls to my doctors, I've cut out caffeine and alcohol, started eating healthier than ever and I pop vitamins like crazy. What else can I do?
The waiting game
Looks like my eggs are happy as can be, comfy cozy, hanging out in my ovaries for now. I am thinking I may as well move into the Reproductive Science Center as the new instructions are for me to come back tomorrow if I get a positive OPK reading and Wednesday no matter what. As if I have nothing better to do! Don't people work?!? Cause really this stuff ain't cheap. I pay a copayment each visit and the costs are starting to add up - thank goodness insurance is covering 95% of treatment cost!
I tell all my friends with kids trying to figure out what to do with their lives.... get into the fertility industry -- there is MONEY to be made, my friends.
I tell all my friends with kids trying to figure out what to do with their lives.... get into the fertility industry -- there is MONEY to be made, my friends.
4.24.2008
So confused...
I love V, she's my personal fertility expert. Today, she sent me a vague email alluding to something called, "self-guided work" -- as something I should be doing right now in light of my situation. huh?
She's at work right now so I'm having a hard time getting a clear answer... but my head is spinning wondering what I'm supposed to be doing that I'm not. No wonder I'm having such a difficult time with all this!!
Time for patience.
She's at work right now so I'm having a hard time getting a clear answer... but my head is spinning wondering what I'm supposed to be doing that I'm not. No wonder I'm having such a difficult time with all this!!
Time for patience.
Patience...
... is not my forte. I am all about immediate gratification. When I want something, I want it yesterday.
Today was the first day I was supposed to use an OPK (ovulation predictor kit) and the test read positive. Trying not to get too excited, I had to stare at the two pink lines for a while. I had never seen a positive ovulation reading before (over 6 months of testing). As per direction from my doctor, I went in for an exam. Turns out it was a false positive. Man, talk about disappointment. The good news is things are "happening" and they expect a true positive sometime this weekend... But now I have to wait again (sigh).
I am in big trouble cause if my patience is wearing thing NOW... Boy oh boy. Let's face it, the ovulation piece of the puzzle is a minor part of the ENTIRE process...
Today was the first day I was supposed to use an OPK (ovulation predictor kit) and the test read positive. Trying not to get too excited, I had to stare at the two pink lines for a while. I had never seen a positive ovulation reading before (over 6 months of testing). As per direction from my doctor, I went in for an exam. Turns out it was a false positive. Man, talk about disappointment. The good news is things are "happening" and they expect a true positive sometime this weekend... But now I have to wait again (sigh).
I am in big trouble cause if my patience is wearing thing NOW... Boy oh boy. Let's face it, the ovulation piece of the puzzle is a minor part of the ENTIRE process...
4.23.2008
$126 Million
... that is the amount of money the Giants are paying one pitcher (Barry Zito) over 7 years. Can someone please pay ME $126 Million for 7 years? jeez, I'd settle for 1 Million.
Here's the deal, the guy stinks. He hasn't won a single game yet all season and he is the first pitcher in Giants history since the 1920's to start with a 0-5 record. I would feel like a criminal if I were him for pulling off such a scam. Or maybe I should look at this from the other side and ask, "how could the Giants be so stupid to give him so much money?"
The reason he got the contract in the first place was due to his proven excellence pitching for the A's.
Listening to my boys on KNBR, I hear so many theories as to why he's in such a slump... if you can call it that (jeez, it's been over a year now since he's been with the Giants):
- Some folks are saying he's not comfortable as an "Ace" (yeah, the Giants still call him their Ace pitcher, hello!?!? anybody home?) -- he feels more comfortable under the radar (hello?!?! you're in the Major League, buddy!).
- Some say he's trying too hard. Oh my gosh, if that's the case, I'd hate to see him when he stops trying.
- There is speculation that he has lost his core strength due the fact that he no longer surfs (The Giants made him agree not to surf during the term of his contract as prevention against injury). Brian Murphy on KNBR joked that perhaps Zito needs to go out and surf and... ahem... get himself on the DL.. (of course he was joking!)
Etc, etc... People love to have an "explanation". I don't really care about explanations. In this world, it's about productivity and performance. Those who are productive and perform well succeed... right?
I know that they can't take the money back, but why the heck don't they let the younger pitchers have a chance to win his title?
The Giants are giving kids the messsage that hard work and performance means nothing. Get that big contract then rest on your laurels, young lads.
Here's the deal, the guy stinks. He hasn't won a single game yet all season and he is the first pitcher in Giants history since the 1920's to start with a 0-5 record. I would feel like a criminal if I were him for pulling off such a scam. Or maybe I should look at this from the other side and ask, "how could the Giants be so stupid to give him so much money?"
The reason he got the contract in the first place was due to his proven excellence pitching for the A's.
Listening to my boys on KNBR, I hear so many theories as to why he's in such a slump... if you can call it that (jeez, it's been over a year now since he's been with the Giants):
- Some folks are saying he's not comfortable as an "Ace" (yeah, the Giants still call him their Ace pitcher, hello!?!? anybody home?) -- he feels more comfortable under the radar (hello?!?! you're in the Major League, buddy!).
- Some say he's trying too hard. Oh my gosh, if that's the case, I'd hate to see him when he stops trying.
- There is speculation that he has lost his core strength due the fact that he no longer surfs (The Giants made him agree not to surf during the term of his contract as prevention against injury). Brian Murphy on KNBR joked that perhaps Zito needs to go out and surf and... ahem... get himself on the DL.. (of course he was joking!)
Etc, etc... People love to have an "explanation". I don't really care about explanations. In this world, it's about productivity and performance. Those who are productive and perform well succeed... right?
I know that they can't take the money back, but why the heck don't they let the younger pitchers have a chance to win his title?
The Giants are giving kids the messsage that hard work and performance means nothing. Get that big contract then rest on your laurels, young lads.
4.22.2008
Happiness is...
I have always loved Charles Schultz' notion of simple pleasures.
Happiness is... watching your beloved dog run through the meadow... in tall grass so all you see is the crown of her head and flopping ears emerge every second or so as she pops up to get a quick view.
I better go find the anti-tick spray!
Happiness is... watching your beloved dog run through the meadow... in tall grass so all you see is the crown of her head and flopping ears emerge every second or so as she pops up to get a quick view.
I better go find the anti-tick spray!
4.21.2008
Not your girly girl
Today Pete and I were noticing how filthy dirty the bedding (where Lucy sleeps) has gotten. Pete noted that he'd given her a bath two times in the past few days.
This dog loves to be as dirty as possible. As soon as she possibly can after getting a bath, she'll go outside and roll around in the dirt.
I said to Pete, "you'd think she'd get a clue that she's just going to get more baths if he keeps getting dirty". Pete said, "she's probably saying the same thing about us."
This dog loves to be as dirty as possible. As soon as she possibly can after getting a bath, she'll go outside and roll around in the dirt.
I said to Pete, "you'd think she'd get a clue that she's just going to get more baths if he keeps getting dirty". Pete said, "she's probably saying the same thing about us."
Wiki
What a fun word. Makes me think about Hawaiian dances or something. I spent some time on various "Wiki"s this weekend... let's see, there's Wikipedia, Wikihow, Wiktionary and a bunch of others. The concept is each site is a giant online resource that can be edited by virtually anyone. So it's a continually evolving project.
Anyhoo, I wanted to do some research before showing up to the Seder, so I searched on "Passover" and "Seder". I found myself reading an article, "how to be a respectful Non-Jew at a Seder" -- perfect! It actually wasn't terribly useful given the article was geared for a more traditional Seder.
I found myself getting sucked in big time. You can read about one topic and they always give you links to other "similar" topics. Somehow, I found myself reading, "how to be liked" (!!!) and "how to be popular but not mean". Are you kidding me? If ONLY Wiki existed when I was in high school. Kids these days really have it easy.
I'm off to read about "how to pass time when bored." I'll keep you posted.
Anyhoo, I wanted to do some research before showing up to the Seder, so I searched on "Passover" and "Seder". I found myself reading an article, "how to be a respectful Non-Jew at a Seder" -- perfect! It actually wasn't terribly useful given the article was geared for a more traditional Seder.
I found myself getting sucked in big time. You can read about one topic and they always give you links to other "similar" topics. Somehow, I found myself reading, "how to be liked" (!!!) and "how to be popular but not mean". Are you kidding me? If ONLY Wiki existed when I was in high school. Kids these days really have it easy.
I'm off to read about "how to pass time when bored." I'll keep you posted.
Monday Monday
No... I didn't win the lottery. C'mon now...You KNOW I would not be sitting here at my desk at 8:40am writing in my Blog if I HAD won. ; )
Anyways, it's Monday morning. Mondays are always the worst for me as the long week ahead seems so daunting and unsurmountable.
Luckily I tend to pack things in over the weekend... and as usual, it was a satisfying weekend full of fun, time with friends, chill out time with Pete & Lucy and as much outdoor activity as I could handle, given it was oh so COLD. I got used to the 85 degree weather we experienced the previous weekend and I'm quick to get spoiled.
Saturday night, Pete & I attended a Passover Seder. We felt very honored to be invited to a family event. I had never been to a Seder before, so I assumed it would be a very religious experience.
If you have never been to a Jewish Seder, it's a ritualistic ceremony commemorating the freedom of slaves in Egypt and the liberation of Israelites. There are rules regarding what is acceptable to eat and the event follows a procedure that is dictated in a book called the "Haggadeh". Certain foods are eaten in a special sequence symbolizing aspects of the historical event. For example, at one point, we ate matzo with "mortar" -- symbolizing the mortar the Jews had used to build pyramids. This mortar was a ground paste made from almonds, berries and other items. It was quite tasty... kind of reminded me oatmeal. Everyone participated in the ceremony, reading passages from the Haggadeh at designated times. The main purpose of the Seder is to ensure the younger generations retain the Jewish History and tradition. Considering everyone is an active participant, I am sure young children learn and retain the knowledge as they participate year by year.
I had no idea that this would be one of the most fun Holiday events I had experienced in a long time! Of course, I do believe the reason why it was such fun is our hostesses are very non-traditional Jews. They are also quite easy going with a great senses of humor. The family members all joked and laughed heartily during the entire 3 hour event. This was no somber event.
Oh, and the food was DELICOUS!
Anyways, it's Monday morning. Mondays are always the worst for me as the long week ahead seems so daunting and unsurmountable.
Luckily I tend to pack things in over the weekend... and as usual, it was a satisfying weekend full of fun, time with friends, chill out time with Pete & Lucy and as much outdoor activity as I could handle, given it was oh so COLD. I got used to the 85 degree weather we experienced the previous weekend and I'm quick to get spoiled.
Saturday night, Pete & I attended a Passover Seder. We felt very honored to be invited to a family event. I had never been to a Seder before, so I assumed it would be a very religious experience.
If you have never been to a Jewish Seder, it's a ritualistic ceremony commemorating the freedom of slaves in Egypt and the liberation of Israelites. There are rules regarding what is acceptable to eat and the event follows a procedure that is dictated in a book called the "Haggadeh". Certain foods are eaten in a special sequence symbolizing aspects of the historical event. For example, at one point, we ate matzo with "mortar" -- symbolizing the mortar the Jews had used to build pyramids. This mortar was a ground paste made from almonds, berries and other items. It was quite tasty... kind of reminded me oatmeal. Everyone participated in the ceremony, reading passages from the Haggadeh at designated times. The main purpose of the Seder is to ensure the younger generations retain the Jewish History and tradition. Considering everyone is an active participant, I am sure young children learn and retain the knowledge as they participate year by year.
I had no idea that this would be one of the most fun Holiday events I had experienced in a long time! Of course, I do believe the reason why it was such fun is our hostesses are very non-traditional Jews. They are also quite easy going with a great senses of humor. The family members all joked and laughed heartily during the entire 3 hour event. This was no somber event.
Oh, and the food was DELICOUS!
4.18.2008
A Girl Can Dream...
Check it out. This morning, I went to 7-11 to check my lottery tickets and one of the tickets awarded me $48!
So, this afternoon I went back (slurpee time) and I thought, "what the heck?" so I plopped down $5 for a quick pick ticket.
Come to find out the jackpot for tonight is $48M...
Hello?!?! Is this an omen?
So, this afternoon I went back (slurpee time) and I thought, "what the heck?" so I plopped down $5 for a quick pick ticket.
Come to find out the jackpot for tonight is $48M...
Hello?!?! Is this an omen?
T.G.I.F. - Reflecting on Technology
Whew! Glad the weekend is here. I don't know if it's the economy but things have slowed down for me, big time. As a Salesperson who relies on commissions to meet my salary requirements, that is NOT a good thing.
I try to spend some time each day researching what could possibly be the next hot product or technology. It gets confusing because the needs of my customers (IT Directors, CIOs, etc) are vastly different from the technology trends I'm noticing that pertain to things I'm interested in: Blogging, Online Communities, Online Networking, etc. And, let's face it, I spend a lot of time participating in the things that I'm interested in!
Makes me wonder if I could be MORE [productive, inspired, successful, happy] if my career better reflected my interests? I digress. Perhaps I'm thinking too much.
I have always been fascinated by technology. From the day, as a child, my dad brought home our new Commodore-64 computer. I loved that thing. I learned to program in BASIC on it and I spent hours playing a very rudimentary version of Frogger. I am giggling as I recall the black screen with the "frogs" (green colored x marks) with no other graphics whatsoever.
It amazes me how far we've come. Nowadays, I don't think I could survive 2 days without Internet access...
Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball just to get a glimpse of "what's next".
Here are a few of the things that I would like to see in the near future:
1. Free Global Wifi (so I don't have to travel from coffee shop to coffee shop searching for reliable internet access when mine goes down)
2. Handheld Computer -- perhaps it will be a cellphone/PDA/MP3 player as well. I am thinking it needs to have a USB port so you could simply plug in your removable disc that has all of your pertinent files. I'm talking just like your laptop but small enough to put in your purse.
3. Faster EVERYTHING - Internet access, Processor speed, etc. I think I might have A.D.D., I get so impatient sometimes waiting for my computer to respond.
That's it! Nothing too far-fetched -- just simple things that would help my productivity level.
I found the following presentation online, Technology Trends
The author is one of those Internet Guru types, I hadn't heard of him before... but I did find the slideshow thought - provoking.
For one, I think it will be interesting to see how things develop with the various Social Networking sites out there (consolidation?) and where they go from here.
Also, the concept of Open Standards intrigues me. My last gig was at an Open Source Software Company, GroundWork Open Source , so I understand and embrace the notion of open standards. It does seem like a very slow shift is occurring from a dominant Windows world to an Open Source world (like Google).
I guess we just gotta wait and see.
I try to spend some time each day researching what could possibly be the next hot product or technology. It gets confusing because the needs of my customers (IT Directors, CIOs, etc) are vastly different from the technology trends I'm noticing that pertain to things I'm interested in: Blogging, Online Communities, Online Networking, etc. And, let's face it, I spend a lot of time participating in the things that I'm interested in!
Makes me wonder if I could be MORE [productive, inspired, successful, happy] if my career better reflected my interests? I digress. Perhaps I'm thinking too much.
I have always been fascinated by technology. From the day, as a child, my dad brought home our new Commodore-64 computer. I loved that thing. I learned to program in BASIC on it and I spent hours playing a very rudimentary version of Frogger. I am giggling as I recall the black screen with the "frogs" (green colored x marks) with no other graphics whatsoever.
It amazes me how far we've come. Nowadays, I don't think I could survive 2 days without Internet access...
Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball just to get a glimpse of "what's next".
Here are a few of the things that I would like to see in the near future:
1. Free Global Wifi (so I don't have to travel from coffee shop to coffee shop searching for reliable internet access when mine goes down)
2. Handheld Computer -- perhaps it will be a cellphone/PDA/MP3 player as well. I am thinking it needs to have a USB port so you could simply plug in your removable disc that has all of your pertinent files. I'm talking just like your laptop but small enough to put in your purse.
3. Faster EVERYTHING - Internet access, Processor speed, etc. I think I might have A.D.D., I get so impatient sometimes waiting for my computer to respond.
That's it! Nothing too far-fetched -- just simple things that would help my productivity level.
I found the following presentation online, Technology Trends
The author is one of those Internet Guru types, I hadn't heard of him before... but I did find the slideshow thought - provoking.
For one, I think it will be interesting to see how things develop with the various Social Networking sites out there (consolidation?) and where they go from here.
Also, the concept of Open Standards intrigues me. My last gig was at an Open Source Software Company, GroundWork Open Source , so I understand and embrace the notion of open standards. It does seem like a very slow shift is occurring from a dominant Windows world to an Open Source world (like Google).
I guess we just gotta wait and see.
4.17.2008
Tina Fey and Amy Poehler
Speaking of baby mamas....
Of course, I can't wait to see the movie.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0871426/
Of course, I can't wait to see the movie.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0871426/
baby mamas vs. non-baby mamas
I'm making a conscious effort to get emails out to Kathy more frequently (see previous blog entry).
I just received an email from her and I had to highlight stuff that she wrote. Kathy has an amazing way of wording things so you go, "that's exactly what I meant!" - must be her Marketing background.
"...my eggs are mine, and yours are yours, and I am always happy when sperms and eggs meet successfully – it gives me hope. Nobody gets pregnant just to show someone else up. And one person getting pregnant doesn’t mean there are less pregnancy opportunities for other people...."
Kathy and I have had many discussions around how people in this world seem to think it is quite acceptable to ask about baby plans pretty much immediately upon a married couple's return from their honeymoon. The Honeymoon return occurred many years ago for both of us... so you can imagine the number of times we've fielded the question.
Guess a couples' sexual behavior and activity is now a public topic for discussion. Not to mention, how does anyone know that the couple hasn't just miscarried, or perhaps learned that they are infertile? I could see myself bursting out in tears if that were the case.
In addition, we've noticed some interesting behavior amongst the women in our network of friends.
The ones who have gotten pregnant and had babies, seem to have risen to a new level of existence than us non-baby mamas. These gals meet up for playdates and have their own secret language that revolves around their respective babies, breast feeding, elite preschools, etc, etc.
Olive branch emails and voicemail messages sent by the non-baby mamas to the baby mamas go unreturned. After all, we are lowly non-baby mamas.... we certainly don't deserve the respect of a response. Silly me!
It will be interesting to see how things progress as baby mamas children grow up and non-baby mamas become baby mamas....
Guess the moral of the story is we are all evolving, constantly changing individuals, and friends come and go.
I am thinking that my true friends will still be worth sending olive branch emails to when I'm old and gray.
I just received an email from her and I had to highlight stuff that she wrote. Kathy has an amazing way of wording things so you go, "that's exactly what I meant!" - must be her Marketing background.
"...my eggs are mine, and yours are yours, and I am always happy when sperms and eggs meet successfully – it gives me hope. Nobody gets pregnant just to show someone else up. And one person getting pregnant doesn’t mean there are less pregnancy opportunities for other people...."
Kathy and I have had many discussions around how people in this world seem to think it is quite acceptable to ask about baby plans pretty much immediately upon a married couple's return from their honeymoon. The Honeymoon return occurred many years ago for both of us... so you can imagine the number of times we've fielded the question.
Guess a couples' sexual behavior and activity is now a public topic for discussion. Not to mention, how does anyone know that the couple hasn't just miscarried, or perhaps learned that they are infertile? I could see myself bursting out in tears if that were the case.
In addition, we've noticed some interesting behavior amongst the women in our network of friends.
The ones who have gotten pregnant and had babies, seem to have risen to a new level of existence than us non-baby mamas. These gals meet up for playdates and have their own secret language that revolves around their respective babies, breast feeding, elite preschools, etc, etc.
Olive branch emails and voicemail messages sent by the non-baby mamas to the baby mamas go unreturned. After all, we are lowly non-baby mamas.... we certainly don't deserve the respect of a response. Silly me!
It will be interesting to see how things progress as baby mamas children grow up and non-baby mamas become baby mamas....
Guess the moral of the story is we are all evolving, constantly changing individuals, and friends come and go.
I am thinking that my true friends will still be worth sending olive branch emails to when I'm old and gray.
Different forms of therapy
My friend Kathy found my blog the other day. I got an email from her that read, "I see now why I haven't been getting emails that reveal your deepest thoughts as often, cause you've been blogging instead". DOH! Busted.
I emailed her right back to say, "not to worry, Blogging sure ain't no replacement for YOU!" (what a shmoozer I am, huh?) But really, and I said this to her... I have really enjoyed my past month or so of blogging. It's a good break and gives me something else to focus on - besides work - during the day.
I made a promise to myself to create at least one blog entry each weekday. I find myself thinking about what I should write while on my daily walk with Lucy... Much of the time I write pure crap, but I try to mix it up with postings that are meaningful or speak from the heart.
The title of my blog is "random thoughts from a random mind". Seriously, ideas and topics pop into my brain at random times, and it's great to be able to get these thoughts out and onto the great information highway.
I really have Ayelet to thank for my "new form of therapy". If it wasn't for her inspirational and pretty amazing Blog, I would not have had the motivation to get mine back in shape.
The reality is my email conversations with Kathy are another form of therapy for me. Over the past 10 years or so, Kathy and I have had an email correspondence that is truly special. I'm talking multiple paragraphs at a time. Sometimes we'd write back and forth to each other 2 or 3 times a day... now we're lucky to get 2 or 3 emails a week from each other.
Back then, we were single, so our discussions revolved around boys, happy hours, dating rules, etc. Now as two happily married and childless women, our conversations are a bit different. Nowadays we talk about the baby vs. non-baby divide we are starting to notice amongst our group of friends, our careers, and how we don't have nearly as much time these days to write to each other (see.... it's not just me and my blog!)
I will always treasure this relationship I have with a great friend who I do not get a chance to see often enough, but I always know what's going on in her life and vice versa.
Hopefully this entry doesn't fall into the "crap" category! : )
I emailed her right back to say, "not to worry, Blogging sure ain't no replacement for YOU!" (what a shmoozer I am, huh?) But really, and I said this to her... I have really enjoyed my past month or so of blogging. It's a good break and gives me something else to focus on - besides work - during the day.
I made a promise to myself to create at least one blog entry each weekday. I find myself thinking about what I should write while on my daily walk with Lucy... Much of the time I write pure crap, but I try to mix it up with postings that are meaningful or speak from the heart.
The title of my blog is "random thoughts from a random mind". Seriously, ideas and topics pop into my brain at random times, and it's great to be able to get these thoughts out and onto the great information highway.
I really have Ayelet to thank for my "new form of therapy". If it wasn't for her inspirational and pretty amazing Blog, I would not have had the motivation to get mine back in shape.
The reality is my email conversations with Kathy are another form of therapy for me. Over the past 10 years or so, Kathy and I have had an email correspondence that is truly special. I'm talking multiple paragraphs at a time. Sometimes we'd write back and forth to each other 2 or 3 times a day... now we're lucky to get 2 or 3 emails a week from each other.
Back then, we were single, so our discussions revolved around boys, happy hours, dating rules, etc. Now as two happily married and childless women, our conversations are a bit different. Nowadays we talk about the baby vs. non-baby divide we are starting to notice amongst our group of friends, our careers, and how we don't have nearly as much time these days to write to each other (see.... it's not just me and my blog!)
I will always treasure this relationship I have with a great friend who I do not get a chance to see often enough, but I always know what's going on in her life and vice versa.
Hopefully this entry doesn't fall into the "crap" category! : )
Definition of a friend
I've been browsing Wikipedia today, trying to find some inspiration to write about. Here is a good definition of friendship. My great friends definitely meet the criteria. When's National Friendshp Day? Does that exist?
Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them. Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating on a consistent basis:
the tendency to desire what is best for the other,
sympathy and empathy,
honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart
mutual understanding.
Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them. Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating on a consistent basis:
the tendency to desire what is best for the other,
sympathy and empathy,
honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart
mutual understanding.
4.16.2008
Say Anything
My boy Brian Murphy (those of you regulars KNOW all about my girly crush on this man... Pete knows not to worry, it's just a girly crush, never to be acted upon... jeez, it's not like he would give me the time of the day ANYWAYS, calm down people).
Where was I?
Oh yes, this morning on the "top 6 news stories" on KNBR, Murph talked about how these days, you just ain't nobody unless you have a stalker.
C'mon now, how many times have you heard in recent months of celebrities and their stalkers... suing their stalkers, getting restraining orders on their stalkers, etc... ?? it is getting a bit old.
BUT of course, when Murph talks about it, it sounds really cool, exciting, fun and noteworthy. I want a stalker too, dammit!
Today Murph revealed that John Cusack is the newest celebrity to report a stalker.
HELLO? has anybody seen, "Say Anything"? If I knew where that boy lived, hell, I might be a stalker myself.
The 30 second story on KNBR really got me thinking about John Cusack. Murph talked about how he thought the female stalker could quite possibly be his OWN wife who apparently has a similar taste in men as I do.... L.O.L.
Murph's wife (who, BTW, sounds like a strong, smart woman who I would probably get along marvelously with), stated that the appeal of Cusack is that he's not the super handsome, hot, got it together guy (a la George Clooney), but instead, he's the reclusive, silent, and a bit socially inexperienced guy.
The kinda guy women feel CERTAIN that they (and only THEY of course) can bring out of his shell.
I can't speak for all of you gals, but what woman would not melt upon looking out their window to see John Cusack standing defiantly outside their childhood home with a ginormous boombox blasting, "In Your Eyes"???
You are so LYING if you say NO.
Where was I?
Oh yes, this morning on the "top 6 news stories" on KNBR, Murph talked about how these days, you just ain't nobody unless you have a stalker.
C'mon now, how many times have you heard in recent months of celebrities and their stalkers... suing their stalkers, getting restraining orders on their stalkers, etc... ?? it is getting a bit old.
BUT of course, when Murph talks about it, it sounds really cool, exciting, fun and noteworthy. I want a stalker too, dammit!
Today Murph revealed that John Cusack is the newest celebrity to report a stalker.
HELLO? has anybody seen, "Say Anything"? If I knew where that boy lived, hell, I might be a stalker myself.
The 30 second story on KNBR really got me thinking about John Cusack. Murph talked about how he thought the female stalker could quite possibly be his OWN wife who apparently has a similar taste in men as I do.... L.O.L.
Murph's wife (who, BTW, sounds like a strong, smart woman who I would probably get along marvelously with), stated that the appeal of Cusack is that he's not the super handsome, hot, got it together guy (a la George Clooney), but instead, he's the reclusive, silent, and a bit socially inexperienced guy.
The kinda guy women feel CERTAIN that they (and only THEY of course) can bring out of his shell.
I can't speak for all of you gals, but what woman would not melt upon looking out their window to see John Cusack standing defiantly outside their childhood home with a ginormous boombox blasting, "In Your Eyes"???
You are so LYING if you say NO.
4.15.2008
Speaking of Luck...
Last summer, I had bandaids on my knees and I'm scarred as a result of having fallen regularly on the morning walk with Lucy. I don't know if it is my balance, bad ankles or what?
Of course, I have been doing the same walk with Lucy every morning all winter long (bundled in layers of sweats of course). I have not tripped, stumbled or fallen kersplat on the concrete, not once.
So check it out, the moment it gets hot and I wear shorts, BOOM... I fall and I now have two skinned knees. DOH!
The Plan
I had grand plans over the next week or so, but I must now put question marks next to each event on my calendar.
My new doctor gave me "the plan" today.... Ouch, I think they now own my life.
Last weekend, I had dragged my sweet husband to a cold, sterile, lab so we could get a boatload of blood tests done. No kidding, these people mean business. I left the room woozy after the lab technician drew 6 vials of blood out of me. I think Pete had 5 vials drawn.
The reason for the blood tests were to check to make sure neither of us are inflicted with any infectious diseases. Why should they care? They want proof that we are clean, in the event we try to sue them for giving one of us something during treatment! Man, I forget what a litigious world we live in.
I thought we were done with the red tape, but now they need us to come in to sign consent forms this Saturday (of course I had made plans for that day) -- it's not good enough if we were to sign and fax the forms in. NO... the forms must be signed in their presence -- you know how I am, forging Pete's name all the time. ; )
I start the drugs on Thursday - two a day for 5 days - then wait a few days, then at day 11, I gotta start testing. The moment I get a positive reading, I need to come in to get an ultrasound.
OF COURSE, knowing me and my luck, it will EITHER happen on day 11 (the day I have plans to attend the kick off party for the SF International film festival) OR on day 13 (the day I have plans to go to a music festival in Livermore).
(sigh)
My new doctor gave me "the plan" today.... Ouch, I think they now own my life.
Last weekend, I had dragged my sweet husband to a cold, sterile, lab so we could get a boatload of blood tests done. No kidding, these people mean business. I left the room woozy after the lab technician drew 6 vials of blood out of me. I think Pete had 5 vials drawn.
The reason for the blood tests were to check to make sure neither of us are inflicted with any infectious diseases. Why should they care? They want proof that we are clean, in the event we try to sue them for giving one of us something during treatment! Man, I forget what a litigious world we live in.
I thought we were done with the red tape, but now they need us to come in to sign consent forms this Saturday (of course I had made plans for that day) -- it's not good enough if we were to sign and fax the forms in. NO... the forms must be signed in their presence -- you know how I am, forging Pete's name all the time. ; )
I start the drugs on Thursday - two a day for 5 days - then wait a few days, then at day 11, I gotta start testing. The moment I get a positive reading, I need to come in to get an ultrasound.
OF COURSE, knowing me and my luck, it will EITHER happen on day 11 (the day I have plans to attend the kick off party for the SF International film festival) OR on day 13 (the day I have plans to go to a music festival in Livermore).
(sigh)
I guess my doctors are just preparing me for what's in store in the event all of this works -- yeah, that's right: no life!!
4.14.2008
The Last Lecture
I am reading a great book. It's about a professor at Carnegie Mellon University who learns that he has pancreatic cancer and has only 3 months to live.
He has 3 young children and is happily married.
I just started reading the book and he describes how hard it is to decide just how to spend the little time he has left.
Of course there are things he would like to teach his children. As well as conversations that, as a father, he wants to have with them, that they just aren't ready for.
He decides to present a series of lectures as a final statement to fulfill his last personal wish and objective. He would also record the lectures for his children to experience after he passes.
Time is of the essence, in this case.
I have a feeling this book will be an inspirational one. I'll write more as I continue to read.
Check it out on Amazon,
He has 3 young children and is happily married.
I just started reading the book and he describes how hard it is to decide just how to spend the little time he has left.
Of course there are things he would like to teach his children. As well as conversations that, as a father, he wants to have with them, that they just aren't ready for.
He decides to present a series of lectures as a final statement to fulfill his last personal wish and objective. He would also record the lectures for his children to experience after he passes.
Time is of the essence, in this case.
I have a feeling this book will be an inspirational one. I'll write more as I continue to read.
Check it out on Amazon,
The visitor
I had a very welcome visitor today... Auntie Flow!
How normal am I?! : )
Two months in a row and just 1 day apart... That means a 31 day cycle, I guess?
I will start the drugs again on Wednesday.
Fingers crossed...
How normal am I?! : )
Two months in a row and just 1 day apart... That means a 31 day cycle, I guess?
I will start the drugs again on Wednesday.
Fingers crossed...
4.13.2008
Here we go again...
I went on a fabulous hike this morning with one of my more inspiring women friends.... damn this girl is impressive. Anyhoo, we talked, cried, and therapatized (and I do not care if that is NOT a real word!).
Amy is the gal who lost her ex husband two weekends ago... she filled me in on some shocking details that have me in a very pensive mood... as well as scratching my head. (MEN, need I say more? although that topic should be reserved for another blog entry).
It is amazing to me how much this woman has been through but she is one of the strongest women I know. Definitely a model for who I aspire to be.
The hike was quite a cathartic event for both of us... the two of us huffing and puffing (okay, just ME), laying it all out in the open, bouncing thoughts and feelings off of each other..... all in the blazing heat (yes, it reached 88 degrees today... on April 12?).
After two hours of blood, sweat and tears (yeah, I exaggerate.... so?!?!?) I felt great... cleansed and ready to conquer the world.
After the hike, we stopped off at Diablo Foods as I wanted to pick up a "princess cake" for my friend Anna. Her birthday is April 15 (yeah, unfortunate!) and we planned to go to dinner that evening.
I dropped Amy off and listened to my voicemail. I had turned off my phone so I hadn't received the call, but I found myself listening to the most heartwrenching voicemail message. It was Anna... tearfully informing me that her dad had passed away the night before.
It was probably the longest message I'd ever received from my great friend (a bridesmaid at my wedding) who I have always admired for her strength and level-headedness. Within moments, I too, found myself in tears. Her father had been battling Parkinson's Disease and his condition had worsened in the past 6 months.
I did get a chance to chat with Anna today and I reminded her that he lived a long life and she did everything in her power to go home (South Dakota is quite far from California) as often as possible to be by his side. In fact, she and her sister had visited just last weekend. He died peacefully and my feeling is that he may have had no more strength in him to fight to live. Anna said he hadn't been eating and he had been bed-ridden. It was time to go.
Having lost my father and my experience when he passed (a bit fuzzy 18 years later), I tried as hard as I could to offer her any tidbit of positivity to help her through this sad time. But I felt at a loss for words. She had many questions for me and I realized that I've let my memories of my dad and the experience of loss fade. I was a baby at 19 years old. How can I realize those memories again?
Life goes on. It's a sad fact and something Amy, her daughters, and Anna will come to find out.
Amy asked me today if I felt that my dad was in heaven, following what was going on in our lives. I told her that I do believe. I believe he knows, and is aware of what we're up to. Of course I hope he is proud. I am not a religious person by any means... go figure.
One very overwhelming thought I had all day after speaking with Anna is this: she & her husband have been trying to get pregnant for a while. Wouldn't it be symbolic if she got pregnant now?
Amy is the gal who lost her ex husband two weekends ago... she filled me in on some shocking details that have me in a very pensive mood... as well as scratching my head. (MEN, need I say more? although that topic should be reserved for another blog entry).
It is amazing to me how much this woman has been through but she is one of the strongest women I know. Definitely a model for who I aspire to be.
The hike was quite a cathartic event for both of us... the two of us huffing and puffing (okay, just ME), laying it all out in the open, bouncing thoughts and feelings off of each other..... all in the blazing heat (yes, it reached 88 degrees today... on April 12?).
After two hours of blood, sweat and tears (yeah, I exaggerate.... so?!?!?) I felt great... cleansed and ready to conquer the world.
After the hike, we stopped off at Diablo Foods as I wanted to pick up a "princess cake" for my friend Anna. Her birthday is April 15 (yeah, unfortunate!) and we planned to go to dinner that evening.
I dropped Amy off and listened to my voicemail. I had turned off my phone so I hadn't received the call, but I found myself listening to the most heartwrenching voicemail message. It was Anna... tearfully informing me that her dad had passed away the night before.
It was probably the longest message I'd ever received from my great friend (a bridesmaid at my wedding) who I have always admired for her strength and level-headedness. Within moments, I too, found myself in tears. Her father had been battling Parkinson's Disease and his condition had worsened in the past 6 months.
I did get a chance to chat with Anna today and I reminded her that he lived a long life and she did everything in her power to go home (South Dakota is quite far from California) as often as possible to be by his side. In fact, she and her sister had visited just last weekend. He died peacefully and my feeling is that he may have had no more strength in him to fight to live. Anna said he hadn't been eating and he had been bed-ridden. It was time to go.
Having lost my father and my experience when he passed (a bit fuzzy 18 years later), I tried as hard as I could to offer her any tidbit of positivity to help her through this sad time. But I felt at a loss for words. She had many questions for me and I realized that I've let my memories of my dad and the experience of loss fade. I was a baby at 19 years old. How can I realize those memories again?
Life goes on. It's a sad fact and something Amy, her daughters, and Anna will come to find out.
Amy asked me today if I felt that my dad was in heaven, following what was going on in our lives. I told her that I do believe. I believe he knows, and is aware of what we're up to. Of course I hope he is proud. I am not a religious person by any means... go figure.
One very overwhelming thought I had all day after speaking with Anna is this: she & her husband have been trying to get pregnant for a while. Wouldn't it be symbolic if she got pregnant now?
4.11.2008
3 Great words
I will never forget these three words. When I was a child, my dad told me that these three words were his favorite words of all time.
He had great taste.... I do feel like these are words that should be used as much as possible, when appropriate, of course!
1. Nincompoop.
noun
a stupid foolish person
She was a nincompoop to believe the Giants would win the game.
2. Titillation.
c.1425, "pleasing excitement," from L. titillationem (nom. titillatio) "a tickling," noun of action from titillare "to tickle," imitative of giggling.
My husband seems to gain much titillation at my expense.
3. Discombobulated.
adjective
having self-possession upset; thrown into confusion; "the hecklers pelted the discombobulated speaker with anything that came to hand"; "looked at each other dumbly, quite disconcerted"- G.B.Shaw
The Olympic Torch Bearers were discombobulated by Gavin Newsom's change of plans.
He had great taste.... I do feel like these are words that should be used as much as possible, when appropriate, of course!
1. Nincompoop.
noun
a stupid foolish person
She was a nincompoop to believe the Giants would win the game.
2. Titillation.
c.1425, "pleasing excitement," from L. titillationem (nom. titillatio) "a tickling," noun of action from titillare "to tickle," imitative of giggling.
My husband seems to gain much titillation at my expense.
3. Discombobulated.
adjective
having self-possession upset; thrown into confusion; "the hecklers pelted the discombobulated speaker with anything that came to hand"; "looked at each other dumbly, quite disconcerted"- G.B.Shaw
The Olympic Torch Bearers were discombobulated by Gavin Newsom's change of plans.
And while I'm on the topic....
A couple of days ago, I blogged about friendship. As you all know, it's a topic that has been on my mind lately, in light of recent events.
One of my favorite girls, Ayelet, sent me the link to a website for Women on the Web (Apparently they wanted to use the domain: dot.WOW.dot.com but it was already taken as an adult website! So... wowowow.com it is!
It's great site for thought provoking women, like A & I, to learn about the opinions and sentiments of like minded women as well as share our own thoughts. The site features a panel of strong and well-respected women who initiate topics of conversation, debatable issues, and questions to ponder. Registered members of the site can pipe in and contribute their 2 cents, providing content on the web. I love it!
Today, I found the following conversation topic.
http://www.wowowow.com/conversation/friendship-family-gossip-Texas
The title called out at me. And I feel it is so true. I once saw a gimmicky t-shirt that read, "Friends are God's reward for punishing us with Family" -- that is a bit much in my opinion, but I did get a good laugh! ; )
One of my favorite girls, Ayelet, sent me the link to a website for Women on the Web (Apparently they wanted to use the domain: dot.WOW.dot.com but it was already taken as an adult website! So... wowowow.com it is!
It's great site for thought provoking women, like A & I, to learn about the opinions and sentiments of like minded women as well as share our own thoughts. The site features a panel of strong and well-respected women who initiate topics of conversation, debatable issues, and questions to ponder. Registered members of the site can pipe in and contribute their 2 cents, providing content on the web. I love it!
Today, I found the following conversation topic.
http://www.wowowow.com/conversation/friendship-family-gossip-Texas
The title called out at me. And I feel it is so true. I once saw a gimmicky t-shirt that read, "Friends are God's reward for punishing us with Family" -- that is a bit much in my opinion, but I did get a good laugh! ; )
4.10.2008
Mr. B
I'm having a very reflective week as many of you know.Seriously, the I LOVE YOU, MAN! emails I sent to almost all of my friends and family members were NOT a result of some afternoon drinking binge, rather a knee jerk reaction to an emotional day that truly caught me off guard. I thought, " it's a funeral for someone I don't even know... I'll show up in support for my friend and get on with my day - never mind the chapel was so mobbed I didn't even get a chance to give her my condolences."
Whoa... hold on, not so fast. I stepped into the chapel and like a ton of bricks, emotions hit me I hadn't felt in years. I listened to my friend's speech.... truly a brave endeavor given it had been her decision to ask for a divorce just a year ago and most of the funeral attendees were his family members, who were certainly not shy about expressing their disapproval regarding the divorce. I admire her honest and touching memorial of a man who was clearly the love of her life. People evolve... it's life and it makes me sad that his family could not find a way in their hearts to accept the decisions that were made in the past.
But, I digress.
Beethoven (AKA Mr. B) is the topic for today. Another friend of mine lost her cat to cancer (what a week!) and I realized that my days with Beethoven are numbered. So, I felt like I should write a little something on behalf of my partially senile cat, who I love like a family member.
This cat has been with me through thick and thin... literally. I got the little man when I was in college, just 20 years old, I felt like such a mature adult. I shared an apartment with my boyfriend at the time. He wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed, thus he named Beethoven, after Beethoven the dog, yeah, that's right, the big St. Bernard in that popular movie from the early 90's. I'm still scratching my head.
Beethoven has been through it all. A shy kitten, he was traumatized early on. Boyfriend and I went on a mini-vacation and left my friend Seema and her group of boypals to babysit. Years later I learned that in a drunken stupor, they had duct taped baby B to a swivel chair, twirled him 'round and 'round and watched as he dizzily tried to run away. How messed up is that? As I write this, I find myself getting mad. But as Seema is a childhood friend, we forgive and forget.
No wonder poor Beethoven always ran and hid whenever someone came over to visit.
Beethoven lived with me in Davis, my tiny studio in Sacramento, my even tinier closet size "studio" in San Francisco.... then life got good: after Pete and I moved in together, he lived in a palatial 2 bedroom apartment in Tiburon, and now heaven: our house in Alamo with the big backyard. Sometimes I find him rolling around in the grass like the king that he is.
Life changed suddenly for Beethoven about 2 1/2 years ago. Lucy the precocious, hyperactive, fast-moving, sharp-as-a-tack Boston Terrior arrived. Oh, it was an adjustment. Luckily Beethoven still has his claws intact and little Lucy learned at an early age NOT to mess with Mr. B.
At 17 years old, and with little Lucy demanding as much attention as she does - oh, and she's too cute not to warrant it - Beethoven often times is forgotten, an afterthought. Except when Beethoven is hungry. Then EVERYBODY knows it. He's relentless, "Meow, Meow, Meow (rubs up to leg), Meow, Meow (rubs up to leg)". He knows what needs to be done to get what he wants. There is no way some punk dog is going to get in the way of mealtime, oh no, siree!
I've started taking more pictures of Beethoven. I will try to post some on my blog. I can't bear to think about the day when Beethoven is no longer in our lives but I do know this cat has lived a great life, I'm sure he has used most of his 9....
Friendship
I have some amazing friends. I have been thinking alot about friendships after realizing that someone I considered to be a friend does not reciprocate that sentiment. I realize that I need to be more selective over who I spend my valuable time with. Friendships should be mutually supportive, respectful, non-judgmental in nature. Most of my friendships are based on such simple principles.
One of my true and dear friends, Victoria, sent me the following:
We don't get to have friends who stay with us for a long time often, and as years go by I value my friendship with girls like you more, because we will always be friends and that's not very common these days. People tend to be flaky and they come and go. and sometimes they grow apart. So it's really important to keep those who are close to us, who have seen us through good and bad close by. And we have to take friends for what they are, with traits that we like and with traits we disagree on. Good friends are like family members, you love them but also get annoyed by things you don't like about them...., Then there are other types of friends who kind of fade away with time, they just don't seem to care about you or be interested in your life, those we call them good ridden. You know who i'm talking about! :)
Victoria and I have had many discussions about "friends" who have faded away as she describes.
We are constantly evolving individuals and sometimes friends come to us to serve a specific purpose and once that purpose has been met, both parties move on. Such is life.
But the true friends who remain through good & bad, richer & poorer, are those to hold on to.
One of my true and dear friends, Victoria, sent me the following:
We don't get to have friends who stay with us for a long time often, and as years go by I value my friendship with girls like you more, because we will always be friends and that's not very common these days. People tend to be flaky and they come and go. and sometimes they grow apart. So it's really important to keep those who are close to us, who have seen us through good and bad close by. And we have to take friends for what they are, with traits that we like and with traits we disagree on. Good friends are like family members, you love them but also get annoyed by things you don't like about them...., Then there are other types of friends who kind of fade away with time, they just don't seem to care about you or be interested in your life, those we call them good ridden. You know who i'm talking about! :)
Victoria and I have had many discussions about "friends" who have faded away as she describes.
We are constantly evolving individuals and sometimes friends come to us to serve a specific purpose and once that purpose has been met, both parties move on. Such is life.
But the true friends who remain through good & bad, richer & poorer, are those to hold on to.
4.09.2008
Like a Drug
Last Sunday, Lucy and I went to the Lafayette Reservoir to hike the rim. It's a 2 hour hike and I had lunch plans with my mom so I had to rush.
We ended up running 3/4 of the hike (usually it takes 2 hours to hike, but running knocked our time down to 1 hour 20 minutes).
What a rush!
I haven't run in at least a year due to recurring running related injuries. I had made the decision to put away my running shoes and go into retirement.
But last Sunday, running at the top of the ridge viewing the amazing sights and feeling my breathing settle into the runner's zone.... I forgot how much I truly love to run.
All of my problems dissolve, life seems a little bit clearer, I feel truly healthy, and nothing else matters but one foot in front of another.... and whatever song is playing on the iPod.
I came home and told Pete. He laughed and asked me if there are any marathons in my future?
Let's take this one day at a time shall we? We had a good laugh as we agreed that my mom would probably disown me if I signed up for a marathon about now.
Good times.
We ended up running 3/4 of the hike (usually it takes 2 hours to hike, but running knocked our time down to 1 hour 20 minutes).
What a rush!
I haven't run in at least a year due to recurring running related injuries. I had made the decision to put away my running shoes and go into retirement.
But last Sunday, running at the top of the ridge viewing the amazing sights and feeling my breathing settle into the runner's zone.... I forgot how much I truly love to run.
All of my problems dissolve, life seems a little bit clearer, I feel truly healthy, and nothing else matters but one foot in front of another.... and whatever song is playing on the iPod.
I came home and told Pete. He laughed and asked me if there are any marathons in my future?
Let's take this one day at a time shall we? We had a good laugh as we agreed that my mom would probably disown me if I signed up for a marathon about now.
Good times.
New Day
It's a new day and I am in a much happier frame of mind today.
Oh, check it out: the Giants won last night's game vs. the Padres.... Benjie Molina hit a game ending Home Run in the 11th inning! Whoa, baby. Apparently Benjie hit two home runs yesterday - and I was laughing that he is their "clean up" hitter - shame on me! : )
I've been thinking a lot over the past few days about friendship and the people in my life who truly keep me sane and jazzed about life. I have some truly amazing, inspirational, and wonderful friends. I need to cherish the friendships based on mutual respect, honesty and acceptance. I also need to recognize the non-reciprocated "friendships" and value myself and my time more wisely.
Life is too short not to spend it with the people you love, who love you back.
Oh, check it out: the Giants won last night's game vs. the Padres.... Benjie Molina hit a game ending Home Run in the 11th inning! Whoa, baby. Apparently Benjie hit two home runs yesterday - and I was laughing that he is their "clean up" hitter - shame on me! : )
I've been thinking a lot over the past few days about friendship and the people in my life who truly keep me sane and jazzed about life. I have some truly amazing, inspirational, and wonderful friends. I need to cherish the friendships based on mutual respect, honesty and acceptance. I also need to recognize the non-reciprocated "friendships" and value myself and my time more wisely.
Life is too short not to spend it with the people you love, who love you back.
4.08.2008
Life is precious.
I went to a funeral today... it was the second funeral I have ever been to in my life, both were memorials for lives which ended way too soon.
This event truly affected me. I don't know if it is unresolved emotions from my father's death. I just KNOW what is in store for these girls (age 13 & 17) , and it breaks my heart. Every milestone they achieve will be diminished to some extent because their dad wasn't there to experience it with them: First day at college, graduation, their first job, engagement to that perfect guy, marriage....
SO... my words of advice to Alyssa and Erica: live life to the fullest.... for your dad and cherish the memories you have.
This event truly affected me. I don't know if it is unresolved emotions from my father's death. I just KNOW what is in store for these girls (age 13 & 17) , and it breaks my heart. Every milestone they achieve will be diminished to some extent because their dad wasn't there to experience it with them: First day at college, graduation, their first job, engagement to that perfect guy, marriage....
SO... my words of advice to Alyssa and Erica: live life to the fullest.... for your dad and cherish the memories you have.
4.07.2008
Opening Day
I got to the city early this morning -- wanted to avoid traffic and ensure I could find a reliable spot to log in so I could get some work done before taking off for an annual tradition -- Opening Day at PacBell - oops, AT&T - Park.
Pete has been to Opening Day every year since the ball park opened. I have been to every Opening Day, except the very first. I just love the excitement and sense of optimism in the air. Fans dressed out in Orange and Black. The park always seems brand new again.
It could not be a more gorgeous day. As I walked from my parking spot ($10 all day, yipee!) toward the ballpark, the sun was starting to rise above the Oakland Hills. I had a little moment where I thought, how wonderful would it be to have a little one with me to share the experience? Guess the "mommy urges" are stirring in me more often now! : )
There is not a cloud in the sky. I had to do a little walk around the ball park, just for memories sake. It wasn't long ago that I worked across the street and spent many days walking around the park at lunch. I noted that the crew was already out getting the field ready for this afternoon. Sometimes I dream about what it would be like to have such a seemingly laidback job.
I am now situated at Panera Bread where they have free wifi, good coffee & snacks and loads of space... but I am having a hard time concentrating on work. I feel like a little kid getting excited for the baseball season.
I need to cherish this feeling because I suspect I will experience different emotions this afternoon.... in light of the Giants' talent level this year. : (
I can't escape it..... GO GIANTS!
Pete has been to Opening Day every year since the ball park opened. I have been to every Opening Day, except the very first. I just love the excitement and sense of optimism in the air. Fans dressed out in Orange and Black. The park always seems brand new again.
It could not be a more gorgeous day. As I walked from my parking spot ($10 all day, yipee!) toward the ballpark, the sun was starting to rise above the Oakland Hills. I had a little moment where I thought, how wonderful would it be to have a little one with me to share the experience? Guess the "mommy urges" are stirring in me more often now! : )
There is not a cloud in the sky. I had to do a little walk around the ball park, just for memories sake. It wasn't long ago that I worked across the street and spent many days walking around the park at lunch. I noted that the crew was already out getting the field ready for this afternoon. Sometimes I dream about what it would be like to have such a seemingly laidback job.
I am now situated at Panera Bread where they have free wifi, good coffee & snacks and loads of space... but I am having a hard time concentrating on work. I feel like a little kid getting excited for the baseball season.
I need to cherish this feeling because I suspect I will experience different emotions this afternoon.... in light of the Giants' talent level this year. : (
I can't escape it..... GO GIANTS!
4.06.2008
Life is Precious
It didn't seem real until I saw this,
http://www.legacy.com/contracostatimes/DeathNotices.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonID=107040665
It's also a strange feeling cause I had only met him once but I do know that this is just such a life changing event for Amy and her daughters. Life as they know it will never be the same.
I won't be able to attend the service but Amy and her family will continue to remain in my thoughts. I have full faith that this experience will only strengthen their bond as a family.
http://www.legacy.com/contracostatimes/DeathNotices.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonID=107040665
It's also a strange feeling cause I had only met him once but I do know that this is just such a life changing event for Amy and her daughters. Life as they know it will never be the same.
I won't be able to attend the service but Amy and her family will continue to remain in my thoughts. I have full faith that this experience will only strengthen their bond as a family.
4.04.2008
The power of the 'net
I am following a discussion list thread on my favorite social networking site, Yelp. I think I'm addicted to this freaking site, but that is the topic for another blog entry. : )
Yelp has this feature called, "talk". Anyone who is a Yelp member (free of course) can post topics for discussion, open to public viewing and response by other members. I love it. I have seen some random posts like, "what should I cook for dinner?", "Things to say to the UPS man" or even a recent post, "I just got dumped via text message". I find myself getting sucked into the most obscure topics of discussion. It fascinates me the power of the internet to facilitate such discussions and of course the key driver here is that folks aren't "discussing" face-to-face.
As such, you can imagine there are many pretty risque conversations which develop....
A couple of weeks ago, a woman posted a talk entry titled, "Help find Bongo!! Please!!". With your profile, you can include a picture and next to this woman's entry displayed the most adorable fluffy white with black patches dog. Naturally, I had to read the thread.
Apparently this woman went on a trip to Florida. Her dog, Bongo, missing her so, went on a mission to find her. She learned that the dog had run away while away in Florida. Feeling helpless 3000 miles away, she posted on Yelp to request the assistance of other San Franciscan Yelpers to aid in her search. This posting triggered hundreds of Yelpers to respond, offer condolences, and promises to help find Bongo. I added my two cents: something along the lines of, "as a dog owner, my heart goes out to you... blah blah blah".
I found myself continually searching for the thread to see if any new updates had emerged. It almost became an obsession. And I wasn't alone, I started to see the same members writing in snippets of good thoughts and suggestions, "put up fliers at all of the dog parks", "Bongo will be back, keep the faith".
Although I'm sure Bongo's mommy will not be content until Bongo is safe and sound at home, but I'm sure it must be a great feeling to continually receive such support.
The other day, I found a new feature on Yelp Talk!.... it's a little check box for each topic enabling you to be emailed anytime a new entry is posted. Nice! So, I added checked the box for Bongo's thread. Now I get the replies sent directly in my inbox.
Now, every time I get a message from Yelp re: "Help Find Bongo!!" I have to stop everything I'm doing to see if Bongo has been found. Obsessive ? A bit. But, come on, these days with technology and the internet changing the way people work and interact socially, any means toward a sense of community is a good thing in my opinion.
It's been two weeks, so I'm sure either Bongo has a new home or he's in doggy heaven, but I am still thinking positively for Bongo and his mommy.
Yelp has this feature called, "talk". Anyone who is a Yelp member (free of course) can post topics for discussion, open to public viewing and response by other members. I love it. I have seen some random posts like, "what should I cook for dinner?", "Things to say to the UPS man" or even a recent post, "I just got dumped via text message". I find myself getting sucked into the most obscure topics of discussion. It fascinates me the power of the internet to facilitate such discussions and of course the key driver here is that folks aren't "discussing" face-to-face.
As such, you can imagine there are many pretty risque conversations which develop....
A couple of weeks ago, a woman posted a talk entry titled, "Help find Bongo!! Please!!". With your profile, you can include a picture and next to this woman's entry displayed the most adorable fluffy white with black patches dog. Naturally, I had to read the thread.
Apparently this woman went on a trip to Florida. Her dog, Bongo, missing her so, went on a mission to find her. She learned that the dog had run away while away in Florida. Feeling helpless 3000 miles away, she posted on Yelp to request the assistance of other San Franciscan Yelpers to aid in her search. This posting triggered hundreds of Yelpers to respond, offer condolences, and promises to help find Bongo. I added my two cents: something along the lines of, "as a dog owner, my heart goes out to you... blah blah blah".
I found myself continually searching for the thread to see if any new updates had emerged. It almost became an obsession. And I wasn't alone, I started to see the same members writing in snippets of good thoughts and suggestions, "put up fliers at all of the dog parks", "Bongo will be back, keep the faith".
Although I'm sure Bongo's mommy will not be content until Bongo is safe and sound at home, but I'm sure it must be a great feeling to continually receive such support.
The other day, I found a new feature on Yelp Talk!.... it's a little check box for each topic enabling you to be emailed anytime a new entry is posted. Nice! So, I added checked the box for Bongo's thread. Now I get the replies sent directly in my inbox.
Now, every time I get a message from Yelp re: "Help Find Bongo!!" I have to stop everything I'm doing to see if Bongo has been found. Obsessive ? A bit. But, come on, these days with technology and the internet changing the way people work and interact socially, any means toward a sense of community is a good thing in my opinion.
It's been two weeks, so I'm sure either Bongo has a new home or he's in doggy heaven, but I am still thinking positively for Bongo and his mommy.
Panic Attack!
Okay maybe I'm exaggerating a wee bit, but I am nervous.
I am signed up for a poker tournament tonight and my palms are already sweaty just thinking about it. Poker is just not my thing. Unfortunately, it IS my wonderful husband's THING as well as my boss' THING.
My boss hosts a bi-monthly poker tourney at his home and it is pretty much a requirement that I attend. I would have a blast if I could simply show up, drink some wine and pal around with the fun (mostly men) poker players.
Unfortunately that kind of behavior is poo-poo'd and I must play. I can honestly think of dozens of not-so-fun activies I'd rather be doing than play poker: scrub my bathroom floor and toilet, clean the garage, write an essay on the history of Lithuania...
I am just not good at any of the skills associated with being a good poker player: counting cards, probability, keeping track of which card combinations are better than others, BLUFFING... the whole situation just unnerves me.
I have a little "cheat sheet" in front of me that I'm trying to memorize for tonight. Here are the hands that I should bet on - any pair, any suited connector (7 & 8 of diamonds), any suite Ace (Ace & 3 of clubs), any Ace + a 10, Jack, Queen or King. Can I write this on my palm for reference tonight?
Even if I could memorize all the "rules", when it comes around to my turn, I always need to pause and think before I make a move. The others start rolling their eyes which makes me even more nervous. Then, since I don't really know what I'm doing and I'm pretty much whinging it... I'll make bonehead moves. Randomly I'll decide, "hey, maybe I can bluff and win this hand?" Of course, it never works out to my advantage.
My performance at these poker parties agitates my husband to no end. He does not understand my lack of interest or ability in this game. We have had some of our nastiest fights on the drive home from these poker parties. Dude, aren't there more important things in life to care about?!?!?
Like I said, Poker is not my thing. Wish me luck guys!
I am signed up for a poker tournament tonight and my palms are already sweaty just thinking about it. Poker is just not my thing. Unfortunately, it IS my wonderful husband's THING as well as my boss' THING.
My boss hosts a bi-monthly poker tourney at his home and it is pretty much a requirement that I attend. I would have a blast if I could simply show up, drink some wine and pal around with the fun (mostly men) poker players.
Unfortunately that kind of behavior is poo-poo'd and I must play. I can honestly think of dozens of not-so-fun activies I'd rather be doing than play poker: scrub my bathroom floor and toilet, clean the garage, write an essay on the history of Lithuania...
I am just not good at any of the skills associated with being a good poker player: counting cards, probability, keeping track of which card combinations are better than others, BLUFFING... the whole situation just unnerves me.
I have a little "cheat sheet" in front of me that I'm trying to memorize for tonight. Here are the hands that I should bet on - any pair, any suited connector (7 & 8 of diamonds), any suite Ace (Ace & 3 of clubs), any Ace + a 10, Jack, Queen or King. Can I write this on my palm for reference tonight?
Even if I could memorize all the "rules", when it comes around to my turn, I always need to pause and think before I make a move. The others start rolling their eyes which makes me even more nervous. Then, since I don't really know what I'm doing and I'm pretty much whinging it... I'll make bonehead moves. Randomly I'll decide, "hey, maybe I can bluff and win this hand?" Of course, it never works out to my advantage.
My performance at these poker parties agitates my husband to no end. He does not understand my lack of interest or ability in this game. We have had some of our nastiest fights on the drive home from these poker parties. Dude, aren't there more important things in life to care about?!?!?
Like I said, Poker is not my thing. Wish me luck guys!
4.03.2008
What's Normal?
Definitely not me!
It's funny, we spend much of our younger years trying to fit in and to "be normal"...
Then we grow up, develop our unique styles and personalities. We then work extra hard to demonstrate what makes us different from everyone else. We no longer want to be a face in the crowd, but instead, someone "special".
I've been thinking a lot about the term "normal" because for the past few months, I've wanted desperately to be "normal". Let me add some context... I seem to be inflicted with some kind of (medical?) condition and my body is just not cooperating when it comes to, oh, let's just say, the basic female functions. I have doctors helping me but everyone is scratching their heads and I am starting to feel like a freak!! Well not really... but it does cross my mind. : )
I know I'm not alone. I google my symptoms and read tons of blogs, discussion lists, articles, etc. and I know that there are many women out there going through similar issues... to be honest, most of the stories I have read describe situations that are much worse than mine!
All I can do is keep thinking positively and forge ahead. Hopefully I can get back to "normal"sometime soon!
It's funny, we spend much of our younger years trying to fit in and to "be normal"...
Then we grow up, develop our unique styles and personalities. We then work extra hard to demonstrate what makes us different from everyone else. We no longer want to be a face in the crowd, but instead, someone "special".
I've been thinking a lot about the term "normal" because for the past few months, I've wanted desperately to be "normal". Let me add some context... I seem to be inflicted with some kind of (medical?) condition and my body is just not cooperating when it comes to, oh, let's just say, the basic female functions. I have doctors helping me but everyone is scratching their heads and I am starting to feel like a freak!! Well not really... but it does cross my mind. : )
I know I'm not alone. I google my symptoms and read tons of blogs, discussion lists, articles, etc. and I know that there are many women out there going through similar issues... to be honest, most of the stories I have read describe situations that are much worse than mine!
All I can do is keep thinking positively and forge ahead. Hopefully I can get back to "normal"sometime soon!
4.02.2008
Haters
There is a mean man on a bike who yells at Lucy every morning. It makes me furious as you can imagine.
This man does not like the fact that Lucy is off leash, never mind it is 5:30am and there is nobody around.
What a bully! She's 2o pounds to his 200 pounds (I'm guessing). He rides his bike without a headlight and feels like it is his right to yell at dogs. A dog who does not make the decision as to whether or not it should be off leash.
I would feel better if he yelled at me. You'd think he'd feel like a complete nincompoop for yelling at such a small dog.
Every morning, this man scares me as he comes out of nowhere, barrelling down the trail. With my headphones on, I usually don't hear him until he is whizzing by screaming at Lucy to get out of the way. NOTE: Lucy is never ever ON the paved trail, instead she's off trail, sniffing other dog smells, chasing squirrels and exploring.
For the most part, the folks we meet on our trail take one look at Lucy and quite simply, fall in love. There are exceptions.
Bike Bully is the worst.... but there are others who do not embrace the sweetness, cuteness and eager-to-please-ness that is Lucy.
There is the chubby Cub's fan who yells at ME (thank you) because Lucy "aggravates" her two pit bulls (!!) -- personally I think she's just mad cause she's struggling so hard to jog. There is the group of little old silver haired ladies who took one look at Lucy and decided they just did not like her.
I used to either yell back or put on my stoniest face and forge on, but I'm getting better. When I see these haters, I'll now put Lucy on her leash. Unfortunately, the bike bully is probably going to have to continue to yell, as I never have enough advance notice to do anything about it.
All I can say is Karma, people. Watch out.
4.01.2008
Here we go again
SOMEHOW the Giants managed to load up the bases.... BUT, there are two outs and Matt Cain, the pitcher, is hitting. I can only Laugh out Loud. Of COURSE he strikes out.
I have a sinking feeling I'll witness many similar situations throughout this season.
Are the Gods punishing Giants fans for....something? Did we poke too much fun at the Dodgers during the times when THEY were terrible and nowkarma is kicking us in the butt?
Guess the good news is Cain is a rockstar and he makes watching the Giants tolerable.
I have a sinking feeling I'll witness many similar situations throughout this season.
Are the Gods punishing Giants fans for....something? Did we poke too much fun at the Dodgers during the times when THEY were terrible and nowkarma is kicking us in the butt?
Guess the good news is Cain is a rockstar and he makes watching the Giants tolerable.
The Black Thumb
I bought a small hyacinth plant 2 weeks ago. The beautiful pink and peach flower called out to me. Every day, for the past two weeks, I've been carefully tending to my plant.... directions say it needs bright light, so my plant resides on the window sill in the kitchen where it should get the most sunlight of any other place in the house. I have been giving my plant approx. 3 tablespoons of a water/plant food mixture just to keep the soil moist, as per the directions.
Every morning, I've anxiously tended to my plant... with much trepidation. You see, I have never been very successful at keeping a plant alive. Ever.
In fact two weeks is probably a record for me.
Sure enough, this morning, I noticed the tell-tale signs of a plant that is dying.... the leaves are turning a bit yellow and the flower is showing signs of wilting.
(sigh)
Maybe I am better off sticking to technology.
Every morning, I've anxiously tended to my plant... with much trepidation. You see, I have never been very successful at keeping a plant alive. Ever.
In fact two weeks is probably a record for me.
Sure enough, this morning, I noticed the tell-tale signs of a plant that is dying.... the leaves are turning a bit yellow and the flower is showing signs of wilting.
(sigh)
Maybe I am better off sticking to technology.
3.31.2008
Perspective
I just learned that a good friend of mine lost her ex-husband over the weekend. Apparently, he went skiing during a work trip to Denver. He went down a slope and didn't make it down alive. They are doing an autopsy but they speculate he had a heart attack. I heard the news 1/2 hour ago and I am sitting here with the chills and I can't focus on the work I should be doing.
My friend was in Hawaii at the time she got the news. She and her two daughters (age 17 and 13) had made plans for a fun-filled week away during Spring Break. I'm glad they are all together but what a shocking and tragic turn of events.
I met him last Sunday after she and I had gone hiking. He had suggested a hike the two of us should do in the future. I recall thinking, "what a pleasant, personable guy!", which surprised me because you never expect to like your friends' exes. He also seemed like a very healthy person...
My heart goes out to her daughters. I know exactly what's in store for them.... a future of wishing their dad "could see them now" at every juncture in their lives.
I feel a bit petty and shallow for my previous blog, written about an hour before I got the news. Gotta keep perspective. Life is precious.
My friend was in Hawaii at the time she got the news. She and her two daughters (age 17 and 13) had made plans for a fun-filled week away during Spring Break. I'm glad they are all together but what a shocking and tragic turn of events.
I met him last Sunday after she and I had gone hiking. He had suggested a hike the two of us should do in the future. I recall thinking, "what a pleasant, personable guy!", which surprised me because you never expect to like your friends' exes. He also seemed like a very healthy person...
My heart goes out to her daughters. I know exactly what's in store for them.... a future of wishing their dad "could see them now" at every juncture in their lives.
I feel a bit petty and shallow for my previous blog, written about an hour before I got the news. Gotta keep perspective. Life is precious.
Sucked in again
Those of you who read my blog regularly have a pretty good idea of my current frame of mind towards the Giants. I have not been looking forward to the start of this season.
Today, I happened to turn on the TV as I planned to squeeze in a quick workout on my elliptical machine at lunch. Oh, that's right! It's opening day at Dodger's Stadium today. Like a rubber necker driving by an accident scene, I could not resist keeping the game on in the background.
Within 5 minutes, I felt the surge of emotions return as I took in the green grass, blue skies, excited fans in the stands (even THOUGH it was Dodger Stadium). Baseball is back. No matter how much I rant & rave, scream, punch my pillow and blog with fierceness, I can't change the fact that I love this freaking sport and the Giants are my team.
MY TEAM.... That's right. OMG, they stink. It's now the 7th inning and they are losing 7 to NOTHING. I don't think any of them knows how to hit a ball.
Oh, it's gonna be a long season. The good news is I should get some good (angry) workouts in!
Today, I happened to turn on the TV as I planned to squeeze in a quick workout on my elliptical machine at lunch. Oh, that's right! It's opening day at Dodger's Stadium today. Like a rubber necker driving by an accident scene, I could not resist keeping the game on in the background.
Within 5 minutes, I felt the surge of emotions return as I took in the green grass, blue skies, excited fans in the stands (even THOUGH it was Dodger Stadium). Baseball is back. No matter how much I rant & rave, scream, punch my pillow and blog with fierceness, I can't change the fact that I love this freaking sport and the Giants are my team.
MY TEAM.... That's right. OMG, they stink. It's now the 7th inning and they are losing 7 to NOTHING. I don't think any of them knows how to hit a ball.
Oh, it's gonna be a long season. The good news is I should get some good (angry) workouts in!
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